Vent Exhaust

Discussion in 'Brainbent' started by witchknights, Nov 12, 2018.

  1. witchknights

    witchknights Bold Enchanter Defends The Fearful

    I GOT INTO MED SCHOOL BUT I'M MISERABLE AND CRYING BECAUSE I'M GOING TO HAVE TO LEAVE MY APARTMENT AND MY BRAIN HAS NOT BEEN WIRED TO BE HAPPY ABOUT ANYTHING
     
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  2. witchknights

    witchknights Bold Enchanter Defends The Fearful

    Idrilla walks him to the door, still talking about her plans for their next meeting, and Cullen stands for fifteen minutes or so in her threshold, absorbed in whatever she was telling him - a flurry of barely connecting topics, slightly tinged with mania, from the finer points of glyph making to the life of some Keeper from four generations ago that wasn't even from her clan. At that time, Cullen felt more than thought, at that time there was something strange in her - the openness of her eyes, the ungardedness of her smile, the air of sheer vitality around her and the thin strands of hair that escaped from her tight ponytail and clung to her brow, her movements sharp and precise and energetic.

    He paid no attention to it. After they said their goodbyes, Cullen went back to the barracks, informed Rhylen of his whereabouts and Elise of his future arrangements; he oversaw an evening drill of the Redcliffe soldier recruits; he spent the next half an hour making adjustments to their training and instructing his lieutenants on how to implement them. He felt hungry, then, and took some less sensitive paperwork to the tavern. It was only then - halfway through a pint of ale and a small bowl of stew - that he realized that Idrilla Lavellan was incredibly attractive.
     
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  3. witchknights

    witchknights Bold Enchanter Defends The Fearful

    I am very happy that I finally got into a med school even if it's not the med school i wanted but i am infinitely miserable that i have to leave my apartment
     
  4. witchknights

    witchknights Bold Enchanter Defends The Fearful

    The moon is too pretty and now i've made myself upset again thinking that i'm probably not going to have a view like this when I move to Maringá. bleeeeeerghhh
     
  5. witchknights

    witchknights Bold Enchanter Defends The Fearful

    It was the first Christmas since my godmother died in the beginning of this year and... it was weird. I hadn't been spending Christmas with them for some time before she passed but I could have spent her last Christmas with her and I just... didn't feel like it, and my mom didn't feel like it because moving grandma places is kind of a chore so we just... didn't go, and she died in January. I don't know how I am feeling. We had pudim for dessert and my godmother always made the most perfect condensed milk pudim and... it wasn't the same. No pudim is ever going to be as good as my godmothers, and I haven't had painful feelings about that in so long but I also hadn't had any since she died and today I did and it was... bitter, emotionally. I hadn't gotten along with that part of my family very well in a while and I still don't but I also miss when she was alive and I could see her. I miss her.
     
  6. witchknights

    witchknights Bold Enchanter Defends The Fearful

    It was always weird to me to talk to her like it is weird for me to talk to everyone else but the last time I saw her she was in so much pain but was so happy to see us and so upbeat and laughing and excited about my med school attempts and now I got into med school and she would be proud of me and I wish I could tell her I got into med school.
     
  7. witchknights

    witchknights Bold Enchanter Defends The Fearful

    Like my godfather, the rest of the family- were completely different people now and we don't get along at all and our politics and beliefs are so opposed that it's hard for me to want to spend time with them, and I still generally don't want to, and it was always a bit boring and overwhelming to spend Christmas at their house but... now my godmother is dead and I just cant do things with her even if they were unpleasant, and it wasn't always unpleasant, and I'm just. Bummed.
     
  8. witchknights

    witchknights Bold Enchanter Defends The Fearful

    I hate being a mean asshole who says mean things without thinking and then immediately regret it
     
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  9. witchknights

    witchknights Bold Enchanter Defends The Fearful

    I literally want to die. Like. I just want my heart to stop
     
  10. witchknights

    witchknights Bold Enchanter Defends The Fearful

    My dentist sent me an outrageously expensive quote for the things I had to do in my teeth. I sent it to mom, and she suggested I fly to my home state to go to my dentist there and I said I was going to talk to my husband and thing up. And he like. Said I shouldn't have sent her the quote (but she was the one who was going to pay for it) and that I'm just pushing my responsibilities on other people (which i do, often) and letting my mom take care of my life and said that it was going to be hell living in mga when mom moved there too and I was. Pretty frustrated and got hurt by that bc it felt like he was saying living with me was going to be hell so I said that he didn't have to and then IMMEDIATELY realized what a massive shitty thing I said. I immediately apologized and said I didn't mean it but he said I was very clear what I meant and that I keep putting him in the middle of my business and that he's not going to be my mom for me and I am so fucking. So fucking sad. I regret everything so much and I just wish I would die on the spot for being too much of an asshole
     
  11. witchknights

    witchknights Bold Enchanter Defends The Fearful

    I just hurt the people I love
     
  12. sirsparklepants

    sirsparklepants feral mom energies

    I think in any relationship there's gonna be some times when you both say shit you don't mean, and the best thing you can do is take some cooling off time and talk about it later to see if you can resolve any underlying issues with a cooler head. Saying something shitty that you immediately regret happens to everyone, unfortunately
     
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