he needs some milk

Discussion in 'Your Bijou Blogette' started by townghost, May 10, 2020.

  1. townghost

    townghost mystery crab

    milk = love

    my name is lukas. i'm very pretty and i deserve to have a fortunate brain.
    please cast good spells on me.

    my bike got stolen yesterday and i'm still waiting for this guy on letgo to respond to sell me a new bike.
    i'm anxious about spending so much money but realistically, two people have bikes for less than the price of one person having one bike in many cases. i'm extremely privileged and lucky to live in a city with a deep bike hustle. however, i feel like when you think there's one more stair but there's not.
     
  2. townghost

    townghost mystery crab

    i feel like this site is like.. a dumping ground for drama
     
  3. townghost

    townghost mystery crab

    i think i know why people are shocked by me going in this journey

    it’s class

    people think that i’m from their class when i exhibit higher thinking

    but really i’m not, i’m learning this from a much lower position. i’m of the 0$ variety

    homeless people
    it’s a different journey for us to arrive at what the current emotional and social boundaries of the middle class are

    when i say that i sound smart. that’s a mistake on my part because i’m not leading people into a situation where they know what to expect.

    i’ve been building up this defense mechanism so i can be on the internet. but that was a mistake. the internet was not supposed to be for people like me until now

    i’m starting, not an old head
     
  4. townghost

    townghost mystery crab

    my language changed when i moved here. it changed to be more of the low class parlance that’s found around here. my emotional and mental boundaries adapted to it

    idk why i’m posting this good shit on here when i should be keeping you guys ignorant.


    that’s an example of a boundary that’s changing as i go on this journey. we keep our thoughts to ourselves in the bay area. i didn’t understand that for a while and it made me feel in pain because i’m a very communicative person
     
  5. townghost

    townghost mystery crab

    maybe i should accept the limitations of this body while i’m in this life. i’m never gonna be an athlete or a fighter and that makes me feel heavy and frustrated. my body won’t provide protection. it won’t let me experience freedom. it makes me feel awkward, small, and unbalanced. how do i accept that
     
  6. townghost

    townghost mystery crab

    i was really deluded when i first moved out here that i would suddenly jump to the middle class just because one middle class person was my friend. even if i had ruben when i came out here they still would have abandoned me, the process just would have been more slow and painful and due to “disappointment” and i wouldn’t get to have my own space. i wouldn’t even be conscious of the class differences
     
  7. townghost

    townghost mystery crab

    i was really excited to suddenly communicate my perspective to the middle class when i was out here. why did i do that? i’m poor. before i was patient and that’s how i found someone to listen. i share and relate to poor people.
     
  8. townghost

    townghost mystery crab

    this is more like a diary than a blog, in reality i’m just sitting here laying in bed because i’m scared to skate and be female. i have a lot of thoughts in my head, no friends because i didn’t want the pain or cross-class relationships
     
  9. townghost

    townghost mystery crab

    hmmm i need to treat this as a notebook and write an actual book that is well written
     
  10. townghost

    townghost mystery crab

    i guess i should explain what lower class and internalized classism is
     
  11. townghost

    townghost mystery crab

    dsa needs to change completely... people have said things like that giving homeless people a safe space to camp “normalizes homelessness” and other just really dumb shit !
     
  12. townghost

    townghost mystery crab

    never trust someone who tries to make you accept a simplistic explanation of something so you can stop thinking about it
     
  13. townghost

    townghost mystery crab

    ah! this is a good example of what i’m talking about when i talk about dominance and submission
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  14. townghost

    townghost mystery crab

    here’s an example of why i talk like a
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  15. townghost

    townghost mystery crab

    that was the r-word not the n-word get your mind
    out of the gutter
     
  16. townghost

    townghost mystery crab

    the way that people force change in my ideas by social exclusion and isolation. lol, you thought i didn’t notice it. you thought i was really that dumb because i talk the way you think i am. i was tricking you. you’re too classed to discuss sexism with. test failed
     
  17. townghost

    townghost mystery crab

    knowing a lot of stuff but not getting to talk about it makes you go crazy and delete stuff from your brain and the way that you talk
    about it is behind a paywall (college)
     
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    townghost mystery crab

  19. townghost

    townghost mystery crab

    nobody’s really saying what i want to say so
    i’m not gonna say it LOL
     
  20. townghost

    townghost mystery crab

    i wanna talk about the pressing problems in my life in a way that respects me and doesn’t lead me to a political place. trans tumblr completely fucked me up and then radfem tumblr just repeated the same shit after telling me they were different. people are shit!
     
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