Further updates: Flight was overbooked, so they upgraded me into business For Cheap and w o w ehat a difference this makes. Business class seats recline to beds, tasty food, nice headphones...no wonder people shell out extra for this. Arrived safe and sound and very tired regardless tho
Man. New job starting in just two weeks, and weirdly anxious about it? Nervous? just. Aaaaa Also boss-boss was in today, for official goodbyes, among other things, and once more pulled out the guilt trip and just 'oh you see how things are changing for the better now, and we def learnt and won't be making these mistakes again' and like. I hope that's true but i'll be real, after nearly 7 years of them not learning? I do not trust that. I do not trust that if me and Kirstin hadn't quite, any of this would have happened, instead of management making us limp forward on half a leg. Like until mid-august we were still covering a full 24h at the hospital lab despite, at that point, already being down to less than half staff. And I don't think for one minute that if they'd had 2/3s of their staff, they would have even temporarily taken out the nights.
but i'm still anxiety and second thoughts, which is Very Stupid because like, it's over and done, I got my new contract, i start a new thing, we'll see where it leads and honestly i'm looking forward to having regular work hours again. Weekends. Holidays. all the little things i did without for the last nearly 7 years. But some queasy feeling remains and it's just...it's strange. Maybe it's just because it'll be a fairly big change ffrom things. Idk.
I'm iiiiiill and i hate it.flu-like infection (not covid, tested that) and almost glad about it because the vibes at the lab are Pretty Fucking Rancid right now because the remaining lab peeps lobbied for letting one of our newbies go because he just was not up to snuff, and the other newbies disagree and just. aaa.
So turns out, the hellcold is covid. First test on sunday was negativ Did one today before going to grabdma birthmas and that one was solid positive. So i'll isolate in the upstairs rooms and drive back home on monday
man. one of these days i'd love to play Matt in DnD (grave cleric) but both times i'Ve tried the games died after one sesh so I think it's kinda cursed...
ngl, very funny to be posting the eroguro fic on ao3 and get kudos...and a LOT of them are from 'guest' But also apparently it made a bunch of people go through the rest of my opus because wow there's a sudden influx of kudos including on some of my 9 year old stuff ...which i just realized i wrote at fucking. 24. Withering into a husk, brb
swear to god when the muse hits me she HITS ME produced 20 pages of spadesfic within a week. Gonna get this baby edited and beta'ed and then slap it down on ao3 but like. man. talk about inspiration.
had an intense moment of 'he wouldn't fuck like that' about people's confident porn assertions recently. I respect your ideas my dudes but i also I think you're wrong about what this character would like, in a way that makes me wonder if we looked at the same source material.