mostly roving, partly stars

I just... *clenches fist* really love Irish color semantics, ok?

 

I am really, really hoping that these symptoms are just overslept/dehydrated/hungry stress and not migraine precursor, because I do not have time for this shit today >°<

 

Yeah, no, this is a migraine again rip me

 

Nurse Kitty has settled in



I'm really glad tomorrow's gaming group is with the players that are more self-directed, bc I'm not getting much further than rough plot & double checking which pre-made stat blocks I want.

 

My blending board will be here tomorrow and I cannot wait!

 

Sometimes I just look at a pattern & the recommended yarn and go "what the FUCK are you smoking"

like yes, that's a very cute sweater and I'm sure it would be lovely in 100% cashmere but that is $600 just in yarn costs, for fucks sake

 

the migraine is still hereeeeeeeeeeeeeee

*cries under a pile of blankets*

 

This weekend has been pain & emotional exhaustion interspersed with very happy fiber time and while I'm glad I have a happy thing, I could really do with, like, some more chill normal non-suffering moments

 

okay, other good things can be found after all. (even if today also had more pain & emotional wringing).

but! writing planning is happening!

and yes, the evil mastermind opening a portal between dimensions to release all the demons is a background plot. what really matters: will these girls kiss?

Spoiler: spoiler

they totally kiss

 

"I just want my girls to kiss, inbetween fighting evil and getting into technical digressions about fiber." - me, at the top of my notes doc, in 48-point font, so when I start stressing about writing I can just scroll up and stare at it until I calm the fuck down

 

Waking up today:

On the one hand, little to no pain or depression!

On the other hand, crippling guilt/scrupulousity.

This is not helpful, brain.

To do:

• Put away some clothes
• Knit on intarsia, pattern design, blue sweater
• Spin and breathe
• Do budget, belatedly
• Go over that article with organizations helping at the border and donate what I can
• Write on my magic lesbeans
• Clean the bathroom
• Figure out dinner & do what's needed to implement it

 

I have put away some things, done two rows of intarsia (i'm behind, so any amount is good) and two repeats of pattern design edging lace (2/5 goal progress for today). I ran the budget, and talked to Kai about planning donations once she's home, and am also mayyyybe planning a new fiber witchcraft? maaaaaaaaaaybe gonna then write the pattern for the witchcraft & donate all pattern proceeds? idek if that's a good plan

I still need to spin, clean the bathroom, figure out dinner, and do writing time.

 

I may have been overly hasty declaring it a "no pain" day :(

 

Today's work has been very needed, and it's stuff I put off too long, but it still ate all my brain spoons and I haven't gotten any fiber work done :(

 

Blehhhhhh no sleep night

I napped a bit in the morning, but it's time to be awake now

Hopefully I can be gentle with myself today and still achieve some goals

• Plan a food?
• Knit some things
• Spin spin spin
• Draft Instagram post
• If I get a surge of energy, clean bathroom

 

ok no, you know what? i've felt consistently physically/emotionally/spiritually like shit long enough. it's time to do witchcraft about it.

 

witchcraaaaaaft

 

so i totally zoned out and made that character playlist in one long go

 

WHAT THE FUCK HOW IS THIS REAL