I'm assuming this probably belongs in this thread. anyway, a few people expressed interest in a write-up of subtypes and symptoms and my personal experiences of those symptoms, so I thought I'd write something about them! I'm gonna start with the symptoms of schizotypal personality disorder, which I'm going to refer to as stpd from here on in. so, the basic symptoms of stpd and a (hopefully somewhat brief) explanation of what each one means, along with a few personal experience example things: - being a loner and lacking close friends outside family. this doesn't necessarily mean that we don't want friends, but a lot of us don't know how to make them and struggle to communicate with others, so we end up not having that many friends. that isn't to say it's impossible for us to have friends--I myself have a total of three close friends, two of whom I'm dating and one of whom I'm just very close with, and one less close friend--but I still struggle to communicate with them and have a hard time feeling at ease around them, even though I trust my partners and best friend relatively implicitly. some of us also just don't want friends, because we find it so difficult to communicate with and befriend others that it's just not worth the effort. whatever the case, we do tend to be loners. however, I'm very distant from my family, so it's not always likely that we'll be close with our family--my close friends kind of became my surrogate family, because I've always been very distant from my real family. - incorrect interpretation of events, including feeling that external events have personal meaning. basically, this is believing in 'signs' from the universe, and thinking that unrelated events have something to do with you. so, for example, a stray cat might look at me and rather than going 'oh, a stray cat', my response is 'it's a sign. this means something. what does it mean?' and then I spend a while obsessing over that stray cat that looked at me and what it could possibly mean. I've seen other examples of this too--for instance, seeing multiple cars of the same color in a row is a sign to some people, or seeing two people dressed the same in a row is a sign, or seeing someone else wearing the same clothes as you is a sign (if it was unplanned). - peculiar, eccentric or unusual thinking, beliefs or behavior. this one's kind of...difficult to explain, but basically any beliefs that don't fit 'special powers' or 'signs from the universe'/behaviors that don't fit 'peculiar dress' would fall here. for instance, I carry a stuffed animal with me, my favorite stuffed animal, any time I go somewhere new, because I have a very firm belief that if I don't bring it with me to the new place, something bad will happen. I can't really say what bad thing will happen, and logically I know it's ridiculous, but I have to do it or my anxiety will skyrocket and my skin will crawl the whole time I'm there because I'll just be waiting for a bad thing to happen. similarly, if I'm in the room and the microwave is going, I have to stop the microwave before it goes off, or something bad will happen. a lot of my peculiar beliefs and a lot of the ones I've seen from others consist of 'if I don't do x, a bad thing will happen', which is interesting. - belief in special powers, such as telepathy. this one's pretty self-explanatory, and before anyone asks, yes, I do have a pretty firm belief in telekinesis, telepathy, and psychic powers of various kinds. logically I know it's highly unlikely and probably not real, but somehow I can't shake the belief that there are people out there with those kinds of powers, to the extent that sometimes I fear other people reading my mind. - perceptual alterations, in some cases bodily illusions, including phantom pains or other distortions in the sense of touch. again, pretty self explanatory, but just as a brief example, I often experience phantom pains in my knees and hands. I also experience illusions like hands touching me, which is pretty creepy and uncomfortable. - persistent and excessive social anxiety. also pretty self explanatory, but just as a brief addition, this anxiety doesn't go away with familiarity, for the most part. even my partners and revealing things to them still tends to make me very nervous, and spending time with them still makes me a little bit anxious, although going to new places with new people makes me much more anxious than spending time with my partners or best friend. this anxiety doesn't extend to online, which is why I tend to prefer communicating via the computer and making friends via the computer. - peculiar style of speech, such as loose or vague patterns of speaking or rambling oddly and endlessly during conversations. so basically, I can only speak on my 'peculiar' speech patterns, which is that I tend to be very long-winded during conversations, and answer things that need short answers with very long answers. this is when I choose to talk, of course, as very often my anxiety keeps me from saying anything at all and a lot of people aren't even aware that I talk. only my partners and two friends have heard me ramble endlessly, and they're used to trying to pick out the important information. but as an example of what I might ramble about, if someone says 'time sure flies' my response will typically be 'well time is a social construct and even though theoretically time is innate the measurement of time according to clocks and time zones is a social construct...' and so on and so forth. I've learned to curb my ramblings enough that I can carry a normal conversation, for the most part, although sometimes I still do this. it's not because I'm eager to share information, it's just because I don't even realize that's not the normal response. - suspicious or paranoid ideas, hypersensitivity, and constant doubts about the loyalty and fidelity of others. I don't actually have this symptom, and so I can't talk much on it. but from what I've gathered listening to others talk, it's basically suspicion that people are loyal to you and the constant fear that people, whether strangers or friends, are out to get you. - flat emotions, or limited or inappropriate emotional responses. I tend to have both flat emotions and limited emotional responses. for example, if I'm happy, it's a pretty weird sort of happy--I don't smile or show any outward sign of being happy, and the happiest I've ever been is basically what most people describe as content. I've never felt sad, just empty. I've never felt angry, just annoyed at most. and I've never dealt with grief--when someone dies, I simply don't care and move right alone down the line, which isn't the appropriate response to death. the only time I've been able to feel upset over death is when I contemplate the possibility of my friends dying. I don't really have inappropriate emotional responses outside my response to death--I feel happy when I'm supposed to, and my version of sad when I'm supposed to, for the most part. okay and now I'm gonna talk subtypes. so for every personality disorder, as far as I'm aware, there's a thing called Millon's subtypes, where he basically separates the personality disorder into different likely subtypes that you might see. I don't fit into either of the schizotypal subtypes, and not everyone will fit a subtype, but I find them interesting to talk about. there's the timorous subtype and the insipid subtype. the timorous subtype includes avoidant features, so it has features of avoidant personality disorder and these would be called 'traits' of avpd, and people who are timorous subtype often are suspicious of others, and very watchful and wary. they're cautious and reserved, and don't make friends easily, or tend to want them. they also isolate themselves from others and deliberately obstruct their thought process. insipid schizotypals have schizoid and dependent features, so they'd have 'traits' of szpd and dpd. they depend on others for structure and do desire friendships but don't know how to make friends, and they are often expressionless and appear dull to the onlooker. they tend to feel disconnected and nonexistent and strange. they can come across as ambivalent to others, and they tend to have vague and erratic thought processes. annnnnd that's all I can really say on the subject!