I've come to a point in my life where I am recovering so well, that I can concentrate on my career. I'm working on my health (eating habits, exercise, physical therapy for my knee), and on my prospects (taking Portuguese classes and getting used to doing things again, organizing my inbox, organizing old files for taxes and receipts so I can respond to issues more promptly), and working on keeping my stress levels low (this is the hardest, as I tend to procrastinate on the breathing/meditation/self acceptance mantras, but I am optimistic about making this a part of my routine). It feels like time to get a job and work on my career to, in the far future, get a phd in ecology. 1) Issue: How to choose an area within the broad scope of Ecology Let me level with you: I fucking love so many things and they are all cool. I like doing field work and collecting samples in sweaty conditions (though that does require me to get into better physical shape than I am in right now), I can scuba dive, and I find things other people find weird or disgusting fascinating (my senior project in college revolved around collecting deer poop to germinate the seeds in it that survived the digestive tract). I love the ocean, can scuba dive, and like the interaction of different systems. I have no idea how to specialize. EVERYTHING IS AMAZING. The Amazon? OH HELL YEAH. The Andes Amazon? FUCK YES. Mangroves? WOO HOO. Marine Ecology? AMAZING. ... You might be able to see my problem here. It gets so overwhelming to chose which area to pursue jobs in, much less where I would want to specialize for a PHD. (One possible endgoal would be Biology professor in a nice liberal arts college, doing my own research but also teaching). 2) Issue: How do I job hunt? I can send emails, if they take me lots of effort, and cover letters are a pain, and there seems to be an etiquette I don't get, and how do I find the right place, and my parents are helping me network but at a point it gets overwhelming. ... There was more I was going to write, but I can't remember, and if I don't post this now I never will!