no "software design", we write thousand-line files like men* *i say, like "software engineering is for girls" isn't an actual literal opinion people have
i need that where the fuck is glew appendix again edit: glew is in /usr/lib64, and the include you need is <GL/glew.h> e2: LIBS += -lGLEW, export LD_LIBRARY_PATH=/usr/lib64
gaaaah homework is boring and hard and i've been "working on it" all day and have gotten nothing done can it be tomorrow midnight already so i can be FREE
...it is actually not that hard to have some opinions on these papers. now if i had only started the report before the last day, edit: wrong tone
i am often upset about having been pretty bored in school but never really have tried to get me some more education because my sense of having agency, and external things being problems instead of it being just a thing i have to adapt to, are extremely broken. i in fact got to skip english class one year, but i let my mom handle that and she got me extra one-on-one drawing classes, which, if i had had any sort of sense of agency, i would have explained that regular drawing classes at my school were mediocre enough, thanks. or at least steered the drawing classes in some more useful direction.
anyway i am free for the next few weeks and badly need a to do list so: - get a therapist? things i have done: - post-semester cleaning - buy christmas presents (lol) - finish thing for seminar credits - ASK ABOUT MOBILITY PROGRAMS - sign up for seminars to be edited
at some point in 8th? grade a teacher gave me a 12th grade english exam to do but i ignored it bacause i was having a conversation! for once! and she concluded that i couldn't do it and i said no i don't think i can, but i suspect i could have done it and i'm still way too upset about that
completely bullshit irrational feelings: Spoiler grumble grumble. How are you a compsci prof and have no access to linux. grumble grumble. these fucking casuALS. grumble grumble
i keep seeing questions written as: ?[words]? and would desperately like the anglosphere to consider: ¿
Spoiler: humblebrag...possibly regular brag aaand i got a 10/10 on it. maybe...just maybe, mind... maybe i should worry less about things. especially things that Don't Actually Matter
everyone being rude af to Ioreth and the herbs master for talking too much is the most hypocritical thing ever
i somehow have not one but two!! whatsapp messages not from my family to respond to. this is entirely too much. it's not even my birthday or anything why this
in shop class one time we made lead figurines and i left mine in my bedroom because why not. and it's been haunting me ever since, but i've never gathered enough sense of agency to get rid of it (i put it elsewhere in the house at some point recently-ish). only to worry. is it giving me depression? did it fuck up my teeth? is it even dangerous at all? (i mean i haven't licked it or anything)