Freaking out again and it's my fault. I wasn't looking for underage drawings specifically but I poked through some 1d4chan stuff looking for ideas and when I saw some I didn't stop flicking through the folder, and I intentionally read some fic with icky content because again I was looking for ideas and it had some potential in the rest of its content. I thought I could get away with just a quick look without making myself panic and it wouldn't matter but I'm freaking out again and feel shitty. My computer briefly flashed up a screen I didn't recognise when I was turning it off and I freaked out in case it was a warning of some sort, and I know that's unlikely but irrational fears are irrational. I knew this was going to freak me out and I know it's bad but I still did it and now I feel totally gross and like I deserve something awful to happen.
