I just need some advice on one thing: is wanting to stay in a relationship mostly because of the physical intimacy even when the relationship is kind of obviously not working bad and gross? Cause I'm feeling really bad and gross about it.
I wouldn't say bad and gross, but it might be worrying? I mean if it's obviously not working then it has the potential to not work even less than it does now. And things not working aren't really that much fun.
Bad and gross, no. Probably unhealthy in the long run? Yes. But you're definitely not bad and gross for that.