i think one other thing that made me sad is i wanted to help and support them and being pushed away in favor to someone else just... sighs. oh well i guess. one day at a time for me.
I think the worst thing I'd be willing to say about your part in that friendship was that it just didn't work out. Your needs were incompatible. It happens sometimes, unfortunately. I wasn't there so I don't know about all the details, but from what I've seen, I'm not remotely impressed by your friend's treatment of you. I'm having a hard time thinking of a scenario in which the end of a friendship with someone who talks to you like that could possibly be all your fault.
we havent ended (as far as i know? bleh) the most reoccurring advice i saw as just make distance between us so we can get our minds back together and it's what i'm doing. i dont want to lose them as a friend over something that can be fixed by talking it out. because another reoccurring thing that came up is there was just lack of communication on their end while i tried to talk to them or ask what's up. so i guess it is a mix of both of us not being in a good headspace where one person is trying to fix it while the other pushed away without giving an explanation.
My mistake. I think you’re right about conflicting bad headspaces. It’s a shame that it’s causing so much distress.
dont worry, i worded it weird i think. im just hoping next year will be good for a lot of us, these past few years have been hell on everyone i think.
im really thankful my mom's so patient with me. i told her about my possible/most likely to have bipolar disorder/bpd and she's glad that im tackling this head on and being mature about this.
jesus christ i can't say a character is a bottom for giggles and shits without people saying she's trans like, what the fuck does that have to do with her being a bottom?
It's hard for me to not say anything about how I want to die on my main Twitter. It's 3 achievements I did this year and honestly not dying is one of them. This year was so bad for me it's hard for me to remember any good things I did this year. Which I think was at least 3 Maybe 4 at best
Honestly I feel like I lost more than gained this year. Lost a girlfriend, feels like I lost someone I consider a good friend, feels like I had my grip on wanting to live but I lost it again. Just... I know theres more but i can't think of them atm
I feel like I couldn't do anything right this year as a friend. I tried my best and i felt like it wasn't good enough and now I feel like I'm seen as a bother and a fucking trigger for my friends depression where I won't even talk to them now so they feel better. Another thing to put on the list: lost the ability to happily talk to anyone without having a feeling that I annoy the shit out of them and they're just humoring me. :)))))))
me: -shows an update on a picture for a zine- everyone/someone: -points out my friends oc's eyebrows and not mention the everything else of the picture- :) i just love that every FUCKING time i show an update, someone mentions their eyebrows. i dunno im just kind of upset that my friends oc is always the center of attention when it's a group shot with it mildly being focused on my oc because of what happened. It's just fun!! feeling overshadowed by someone elses character in your own damn picture. Spoiler: the picture
for once i want to feel not like this??? i want to not be this upset over such small things. doesn't help that ive been super irritated lately and i dont know how to stop.
i think it frustrates me more why im like this or why i feel upset is like, every time i try to show something off that i made kind of for everyone, it's usually ignored, but when my friend makes something, everyone throws out compliments. this happens to my other friend too and it sucks. i feel bad and i try to show support so people can do it too and like?? we're both upset.
fkjlds one of my friends i dont talk to is so sweet. im glad when we do talk it's just super relatable feels on having the same things
holy heck this is gorgeous siggy. i really love the color and texture of the piano and the pianist's cape