these all were tweets but i decided against it. Spoiler: I'm very angry and disappointed in my brother Kind of hate being told to go away after asking him to not yell. like i havent been bothering him for a whole 10 minutes of him yelling and the moment i ask him to not fucking yell, he tells me to go away and leave him alone :) :) he's in the next room from mine. Like this isn't an exaggeration, he yells so loud and bangs on his desk and complains and all i ask is for him to not yell at his goddamn game. I can't even be in my own room w/o hearing him yelling cuz that bounces off of me and it makes me angry and i can't focus or even SLEEP Honestly i'm so mad at him, he's not going to school and he doesn't tell us ANYTHING aside from not feeling safe. like fair but he wont go into more detail why he doesn't feel safe. he won't clean up his area or clean up after cooking, he does NOTHING. legit it's pissing me and my family off because he's been told he can get scholarships and such but all he wants to do is stay at home and play league of legends and not do anything to help in the house. i'm just so mad at him, he's so inconsiderate to his entire family, he does nothing to help around, he doesn't tell us anything when he's upset cuz we are genuinely worried about him and we want the best for him but he does nothing to even fucking help himself at this point. like we want to help, we really do, we want him to be in a good mental health state, we want him to succeed but after a few years of him constantly missing school via headaches and such and us giving him the needs to remove those aches, he doesn't use them. like he's 16 and he has 2 more years of school, no matter what me, my parents, his brothers, PEOPLE FROM SCHOOL telling him that he will fail his grade and be held back and he then feels awful about that and tries to avoid us all together when we want him to go to school like i get it i failed my grade and dropped out but at least i had a back up and did my GED, for him he is legit wasting so many opportunities for himself and i dont want him ending up how i ended up. but holy shit he gets mad at us for even asking him basic things like CLEANING UP HIS DESK AND HIS AREA AND HIS MESSES AFTER COOKING, we get him food he wants, we get him sketchbooks if he wants them but honestly im at a point where if eel like he doesnt even deserve-- my attention if all he does is be shitty to me when all i ask of him to NOT BE LOUD. like it sounds harsh of me to say this about a 16 year old but he's pushed past my limits and i WISH i can move out of my house so i can get away from his bad energy. I have nothing positive to say about him anymore than 'he's smart'. cuz he is, but he's fucking unfun to be around when all he does is say the r slur, yell angrily at his game, be loud while talking in general with his friends and be a goddamn slob. I don't want to say i hate him but i'm that close to it being that fully because he does nothing positive in me or my families life, he just makes us all mad and hella disappointed in him for deciding to become a NEET in a house that's always scrambling to pay bills. I know i'm not perfect, i know i was pretty mean as a kid at points to my brothers and it went down the line to him, but we're annoyed that he won't talk to us and won't let us help him, and im afraid that someone will come to my house and question my parents and im afraid people will think we're abusing him when he's pretty much abusing us with his yelling and violent anger when we ask him to not be loud and be a little quiet.