Vent siggy is soggy

Discussion in 'Brainbent' started by mcsiggy, Mar 1, 2017.

  1. mcsiggy

    mcsiggy Is actually a small floof ball on top of a cow

    I just, i want to sleep and rest. i dont want to worry about money anymore.
     
  2. mcsiggy

    mcsiggy Is actually a small floof ball on top of a cow

    Am I a baby for getting sad whenever i see my following and follower count go down on my main twitter? im not obsessively checking who's gone cuz i legit dont remember everyone anyway, but seeing the numbers go down just :( makes me so sad.

    i enjoy seeing mutuals/friends on my dash and seeing the number go down i think effects me so much more than it should. things have been not fun for me lately so,, ye.
     
  3. mcsiggy

    mcsiggy Is actually a small floof ball on top of a cow

    maybe i should just die, nothing in life feels like anything and i just, i dont want to be around anymore.
     
  4. mcsiggy

    mcsiggy Is actually a small floof ball on top of a cow

    i forgot how much i felt discouraged from reading another webcomic cuz i feel like mine isn't as good or even half good, but!! I gotta remember that, im writing something a little different, and i portray things differently. if i have fun w/ what i do it'll be okay ;w;

    its just still hard to not compare urself sometimes.
     
  5. mcsiggy

    mcsiggy Is actually a small floof ball on top of a cow

    The last thing i said is accurate but it doesnt remove how i feel like i'm not actually good at what i do at all and im a failure on so many levels for my craft and as a person
     
  6. mcsiggy

    mcsiggy Is actually a small floof ball on top of a cow

    lmao i'm one period away from just offing myself at this point
     
  7. mcsiggy

    mcsiggy Is actually a small floof ball on top of a cow

    what does it mean when you want a dick but you don't want to be a guy and still seen as more feminine despite u being nonbinary

    asking for me
     
  8. mcsiggy

    mcsiggy Is actually a small floof ball on top of a cow

    ever since we buried our dog last year, we've been putting flowers on his grave whenever mom got any from work

    it's a nice thing to do, just wish it didn't remind me how afraid i am of dying after everyone else i love dies before me.
     
  9. mcsiggy

    mcsiggy Is actually a small floof ball on top of a cow

    i think this is why i like greek myth a lot cuz, it's just everlasting in their own way.
    idk, growing old isn't what full scares me, is the dying and not knowing what happens after is what makes me afraid, but i kind of hope i see hades or... idk, someone who's caring enough to understand that i'm trying my best now.
     
  10. mcsiggy

    mcsiggy Is actually a small floof ball on top of a cow

    I know it's my period talking but, man, nothing feels fun or amazing at all anymore.
     
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  11. mcsiggy

    mcsiggy Is actually a small floof ball on top of a cow

    i feel like a failure, i have no money, i have no energy to earn money, i'm constantly trying so hard to be somewhat normal but i feel like i'm just a freak who everyone tolerates.
     
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  12. mcsiggy

    mcsiggy Is actually a small floof ball on top of a cow

    I wish i was more comfortable w/ expressing myself how everyone else does when pride month is around when it comes to exaggerate themselves.

    like, i guess i feel bad cuz i draw dionysus a lot, and he really is that god who is queer all around, from drag to just hanging out, and i feel bad for not drawing the more extreme parts of him because i dont know /how/ i can show it/i dont feel like i can do it at all because of how i am myself.

    idk, i want to be less upset and nervous at my ownself and more like, idk, comfortable.

    i did try to wear lipstick the other day and man, i was so nervous i didnt want to open my mouth at all cuz of lipstick teeth lmao
     
  13. mcsiggy

    mcsiggy Is actually a small floof ball on top of a cow

    i love make up and i think it's so cool, but i wish i would apply it to myself w/o thinking i look like a freak, and it's just me wanting to put on simple black lipstick and eyeliner :')

    i know the few times i wore make up i was either poked fun at (mean or not) and or was told what i was wearing looked bad, and i just... idk it made me not want to put anything on my face.
     
  14. mcsiggy

    mcsiggy Is actually a small floof ball on top of a cow

    Getting emotional from feeling alone lol
     
  15. mcsiggy

    mcsiggy Is actually a small floof ball on top of a cow

    i feel like my wanderlust is just me wanting to run away lol
     
  16. mcsiggy

    mcsiggy Is actually a small floof ball on top of a cow

    Yeah I don't, want to enter art contests anymore. I always knew I wouldn't have a chance, considering I had no idea how the con wanted things to be and I guess mine was too bland and no one wanted to tell me
     
  17. mcsiggy

    mcsiggy Is actually a small floof ball on top of a cow

    I just won't go to the con, I doubt there's going to be an empty table anyway.
     
  18. mcsiggy

    mcsiggy Is actually a small floof ball on top of a cow

    I wanna cry and tell someone I'm upset but all my friends who are going to thr con have a table or know I'm being a baby about it and... idk. I just, I feel like I'm giving up on art cuz I never feel like I'm good enough and I'm getting too old for.. something. Idk
     
  19. mcsiggy

    mcsiggy Is actually a small floof ball on top of a cow

    Honestly I wish I had my college money and get a bike already so i can just, take my anger out by cycling to no where
     
  20. mcsiggy

    mcsiggy Is actually a small floof ball on top of a cow

    I just wish I was good enough for once. Not almost. Actually there good enough.
     
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