Vent siggy is soggy

like idk being bullied all my life made me so viscerally angry when people bully others where even i hate being mean and bullying others, even if its playful. I can't do it, it's too much for me and i get so so upset about it.

 

me being on my period doesnt help either with how emotional i am about this but maybe we SHOULDN'T make it normal for people in games to be shitty to another team if they aren't that good?

 

nothing more fun than having a whole ass panic attack before you can even go to work that you chose to go to, so fun! I'm a complete failure for myself :')

 

i jsut dont want to be around anyone anymore, i feel like im annoying, everyone around me annoys me and i dont want to snap at anyone who did nothing wrong, but everything is just irritating me more and more. even if i wasnt on my period im just, not having a good time.

 

i wish that i can just,, exist. like i sound like a child not wanting a job (i have one now auuhh!) but just simply existing sounds so nice.
/_\ jellyfish really do have it easy

 

like!!! idk, i've been suicidal since middle school and i never thought i'd get this far in life, but,,, i don't have much to do. i feel like ive wasted so much.