it feels weird everything was building up to this moment and I worked so hard and nothing that pretty much sums up this whole semester for me
on the one hand i dodged a fucking bullet and now i don't have shit to worry about senior year on the other hand i really thought i could do a good job as captain and that was kind of...my main motivation to do shit for the guard and well. no guarantees ill continue enjoying this activity because i guess i'm just too goddamn salty about this!!!!! fuck this other girl didn't even want to audition until the last minute and probably only because her bff was running for cocaptain, and her bff also has a huge fucking drinking problem and I DON'T FUCKING THINK SOMEONE LIKE HER DESERVES A LEADERSHIP POSITION. SHE WAS FUCKING SUSPENDED FROM BAND FOR A WEEK FOR DRINKING WHAT THE HELL HOW COULD THE FRESHMEN TRUST HER MORE THAN ME??????????
the entire fucking band has an alcoholism problem i think and i'm like the only one who doesn't fucking drink it feels like and i also feel like i'm the only one who FUCKING GIVES A SHIT how does one just brush off something like that???????
fuck now i'm salty cause birdy was gonna play haku with us in the rave but because cT is always in there they chickened out look i don't like cT either but if she does something shitty/gross THEN you call her out, don't just...i dunno, you really think she's jacking it to your 15yo character?
wow i feel like birdy doesn't respect me or my time as much as i respect her and hers...like this is a chronic problem, i set aside time to see her in person after confirming plans, she oversleeps or something comes up and she has to cancel this has been going on for four fucking years and i'm so fucking tired of it
like if you actually don't wanna see me then tell me and if you do wanna see me, set an alarm, get your ass in fucking gear my god
Wouldn’t it be easier to just take this in DMS or is she ok with you namedropping her publically Like I’m not judging just a weird choice of platform
she broke up with me i'm really really such trash because i'd take her back in a heartbeat if she asked
WELL NOW I DON'T HAVE TO FEEL GUILTY ABOUT GIVING MY FRIEND A BOOTY CALL WHEN I GO BACK TO SCHOOL FINALLY GONNA BED HIM YEET
see...this could be good for me tho........ i think i'll see where this takes me, and revisit this over the summer, perhaps
like i love birdy very much but i also...really held myself back because of her. i spent a lot of time fretting and waiting around for her, but now i don't have to. i would like to still...in a few months time, if she's grown, and she still wants me? sure.
