Vent that T is hot (nsfw at times)

I love 10 hour problem sets
fucking superb they are, I stay up until 5:30am

 

I should really go eat dinner but it's dark out and i have food in my room

but i should use my meal swipes

 

eat you loser

 

@Birdy so there was indigo dyeing going on in my dorm today, and to match your other birthday gift, I hand dyed you some underwear.

did you know that indigo smells like old farts?

 

hahahahaha grossssssss

 

yes but! the underwear looks cool

 

fuck my life

the blood waterfall continues to torture me, it literally feels like my entire pussy is about to fall off. i'm not even that dysphoric just in pain.

 

hhhhh fuckkkkk first drumline competition is tomorrow and i'm so fucking nervoussssssss

 

I believe in youuuuuuuuuu

 

65.2 out of 100, the worst score on the board. on the one hand, the other schools have been competing for a month already. on the other hand, i'm really disappointed. most of the judges comments were about the drumline not playing as a unit, i.e., not necessarily my problem, as i'm solely a visual component. apparently there was one comment about me, but theo (the show comm) is being really cagey and won't tell me what they said. dude, I can't start brainstorming solutions if you don't tell me what they said.

 

my datemate's younger sibling almost caught us having Skype sex why

 

when you've been doing homework since ~1pm and start your last problem set at 2am and it's due in class the next day

 

i really want to get in an argument or a fight with someone over me being trans

someone punch me please so i can fight back

 

i feel like ass right now

my parents are mad at me for failing my prelim lol as if i wasn't already beating myself up over it
but anyways i just felt really depressed as soon as i got back to my room

 

Well I drunk my first full alcohol and it tasted pretty bad and I'm not even buzzed.

 

it's almost 11 and i haven't even started my weekly lab report that's due tomorrow

and i fucking. i know i'm doing it because i'm ashamed my group couldn't get the first part done last week

 

FINISHED MY LAB REPORT ONLY TO HAVE FCUKIGN PRINTER CONNECTIVITY ISSUES YOURE ON THE SAME NETWORK WHATS THE FUCKING DEAL

 

um so my datemate is at their wellness center wanting to die and they don't wanna text me is it bad that I'm kind of freaking out? I'm finding it hard to concentrate in class and I'm nauseous. tbt to the day they attempted suicide yayyyyyyy

 

it would be nice if my mental health didn't directly depend on whether or not my datemate wants to kill themself lol

 

Spoiler: bae if you're reading this don't

Spoiler: i mean you can but it might make you feel sad

Spoiler: at this point i'm just screaming into the void

is it even healthy for me to stay with them at this point...i love them but i can't keep having panic attacks every time they;re like "lol i wanted to die so i asked for help" i should be proud of them for not killing themself