threw up again today, this time from anxiety I wish I could talk to my datemate, but they're busy. I'm scared for them.
so i keep saying mean things because i know it'll get my datemate mad i think its because its easier for me to handle their anger than their depression. at least if they're mad at me i can have a thing to point out like "see? this is why they're upset. and it's all your fault, you piece of shit" that doesn't make it right though. i think i should be better at removing myself from situations like this.
FUCK i fucked UP MY SHOT AND IT HURTS i needed to stab my leg three times to get it in and i almost threw up lmao
Spoiler: nsfw my datemate and i had the best Skype sex~~~~~ they are so beautiful and they were really good about me taking a while to cum. Spoiler: cock also my clit is getting bigger again holy shit. it's gr10.
i always start my homework at abysmal hours it's weird how productive i was this weekend only to have it totally fall apart today
my favorite part about my period is that my entire labia, clitoris, and mons pubis are hurting and swollen
I can say this now that my datemate has this thread on ignore but I'm jealous that they're going to a queer party...I wish I could go with them. I almost tried to convince them not to go, but there isn't a point. we're in an LDR so...
why am I so bad at interpersonal interactions wrt people feeling shitty my datemate and I were saying our goodbyes because I'm going back to school tomorrow and they always feel like crap when they're tired...so as I was headed out the door they said "i feel like garbage" and I said "when do you not" which was... really uncalled for especially since we had a very nice day together it's so much easier for me to deal with them being upset at me instead of at themselves... and I knew it was a rude thing to say but I still said it
lmao i told my mom i'd go to the review session tonight for my exam on tuesday but i don't have the spoons and i've got a bunch of other stuff to take care of plus there's another one tomorrow, so it's not like i won't get any review. so why do i feel so guilty and shitty
I just stretched and pulled a muscle and my ribs really hurt. I can't wait until I don't have to bind anymore
i'm finding it really hard to deal with them tbh i'm trying to be patient but i have such a short fuse wrt their depression nowadays...i still love them i just...need a fucken break
also I'm really salty that everyone else seems to have people visiting their vent threads and commenting but I'm just being a petulant child