Warning for discussion of abortion and related issues. So, yeah. I went from basically okay to anxiety-spiraling, hyperventilating, sobbing today, because a friend told me a story about a thing in a video game and it was Bad. I do not know what kind of emotional closure I could possibly need. I did not kill a person-in-potentia. It was an ectopic pregnany and before six weeks. I wasn't brave enough to talk about it at the time, but I told everyone afterwards. I told like half my fucking high school. I apologized to my boyfriend for not telling him, and it still wasn't any of his business what I chose to do. I have grieved. I have written about the experience. I have talked about it, and how it made me feel, and I think I've come to terms with it, but I still keep freaking out and I don't know what else to do. How can I stop feeling sick when I encounter anything about traumatic pregnancies, reproductive rights experiences, miscarriages, etc? I live near a planned parenthood. I can't really afford to start shaking whenever there are protesters outside it. I am tired of this being the way my brain works.