Vent Walk-in freezer (general-purpose vent thread)

Discussion in 'Brainbent' started by seebs, Jun 1, 2016.

  1. Verily

    Verily surprised Xue Yang peddler

    @whyguy Well fuck. You’re the front line of medical evaluation there. It wouldn’t occur to me to doubt that you’re capable of making accurate assessments about the care available, whether it suits the patient’s needs, and if the patient is obviously, actively unsafe. Denying treatment and suggesting alternatives to people who should not, in your professional opinion, be treated in your facility sounds like doing your job to me. That’s terrifying and the guy is an ass.
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  2. Gee

    Gee the mail never fails

    Complimented my single mutual on Twitter on her hair and she. Vagued about it bc people only ever compliment her hair since she came out as mtf. But like she has beautiful curly ginger hair. I feel awful I'm sorry
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  3. glitchreality

    glitchreality New Member

    can i just die already
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  4. ChelG

    ChelG Well-Known Member

    My Kindle is broken and I need to go out to get a new one but I'm sick and I really can't venture more than a few yards from a toilet today :( I had a pretty serious meltdown when it wouldn't work, too, and ended up screaming obscenities which the neighbours definitely heard. It's been a while since I melted down that badly, I was doing well. Bleh.
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  5. Tired and Sad

    Tired and Sad Mostly Just for Anon Venting

    lmao i was trying to read a tweet and twitter now forces u to go to their page to read a thread, and i sometimes read their other tweets to see if there's context for ff14 stuff and this person had some fucking takes on tos that just. infuriated me to no end.

    like!!! they were mad ppl ship zelos/lloyd and sheena/colette bc two are in their early 20s and two are in their late teens and just??? my dude it's a jrpg. it's a 2003 jrpg, and they've been fandom queer staples for years bc of the emotional connection from in game.
  6. Meagen Image

    Meagen Image Well-Known Member

    It's 2 AM and it's so nice and quiet and nobody can reasonably expect me to be Doing Things and I just want this to continue. I don't want to fall into Dreamland where I'm always trying to get somewhere nonexistent in the pursuit of some nonsensical goal. I don't want to wake up and have it be Monday and have to deal with house cleaning and bureaucracy and everything else.

    My sleep schedule is completely off and I don't have the strength to change it.
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  7. ChelG

    ChelG Well-Known Member

    Still feeling fucked up about turning thirty. I know it's very far from being old, but it's in the "old enough to be a real adult" bracket and I very much feel like I am not. Speaking to the Well Women counsellor tomorrow. Does a nonbinary DFAB count under their jurisdiction?
  8. vuatson

    vuatson [delurks]

    godfuckingdammit why is it now, when I am finally a responsible adult who brushes their teeth daily, that I am getting tooth problems that are actually bad

    part of one of my front teeth is crumbling away. it's had a dark spot for a few months now which I stupidly ignored because a) it didn't (and still doesn't) hurt, and b) I was stupidly in denial about anything being wrong because as I said I actually brush my teeth daily now. I'm good about it. when I was a kid I almost never brushed my teeth because toothpaste hurts my mouth and I got some fillings out of it but now I have a toothpaste I can use and I use it regularly and my left lateral incisor is just fucking coming apart on the side!

    I don't think of myself as vain but I really don't want to be missing a front tooth. I really don't fucking want that. I have an appointment in 3 weeks and I hope they can do some kind of filling or implant right there because i just, really don't want to not have that tooth

    fuck me running I should have dealt with this months ago. fuck!
    Last edited: Sep 2, 2019
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  9. whyguy

    whyguy blarg

    I wish I knew how to socialize with people in a meaningful way

    I know I can do it, it's happened in the past, but it's like everything has to align just right. and putting myself out there, be it online or irl, takes so much energy I usually take a month or more to recharge between attempts. which doesn't really make for good odds
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  10. ChelG

    ChelG Well-Known Member (NSFW)

    Lee is effectively me in circumstances and every behaviour they've shown so far.
  11. leitstern

    leitstern 6756 Shatter Every Sword Break Down Every Door

    I should accept it’s a bad mental health day and throw in the towel!

    I have no concept that things might not be my fault and I feel alone, lost, and scared when someone suggests to me that something might not be my fault. I panic. I only understand if it’s my fault. The kindness and sympathy and pity I get when something bad happens to me is just SMOTHERING. Trying to act like I didn’t do anything wrong when the car was hurt recently had been just exhausting. It feels like I’m going to be struck down at any time.
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  12. leitstern

    leitstern 6756 Shatter Every Sword Break Down Every Door

    Well it’s tomorrow and I’m not better. I am genuinely doing so fucking bad right now. It hurts so bad to be given hope again and to have time, resources, assistance and all these people right here that I need to impress, or else. Improve my life and get a better job, now, or else. Even taking a long time is failure. Slacking off for a while is not showing results. And I have to just sit on the knowledge that it’s too much for me and I can’t manage it because no one believes me when I say I can’t handle it.

    They all say I’m capable of more and there’s no way of getting them to understand how hard it is. And even if I accomplished that all I would have is everyone else finally aware that I will NEVER fulfill the high hopes laid out for me just as I am aware.
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  13. ChelG

    ChelG Well-Known Member

    Minor road accident, someone hit the side of the car I was in D: No serious damage, but that was a little shaking.
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  14. ChelG

    ChelG Well-Known Member

    Time passing is freaking me out. My family, thanks to a lot of drama on one side and the other side living on the other end of the country, is tiny, my grandmother's in her eighties and my parents approaching their sixties, and neither my sister nor me want to start our own families, so someday which feels like it's approaching fast we'll only have each other left. I don't know what I'll do then because she can't rely on me to help her with anything. I can't even drive.
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  15. Alexand

    Alexand Rhymes with &

    I've had neck pain and a headache for about a month and I just want it to end. Nothing has helped. A week ago it felt like it was getting better, but now it feels like it's getting worse. Nothing is helping.
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  16. ChelG

    ChelG Well-Known Member

    Have you seen a doctor?
  17. leitstern

    leitstern 6756 Shatter Every Sword Break Down Every Door

    No, no, Strawman, you don't understand. When other people have no money, they're victims of a massive, unstoppable system that exists to exploit them. When I have no money, I'm a useless, stupid waste of space who can't handle adult life. You don't get it. You have to REALLY HATE ME for any of my beliefs or habits to make sense.
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  18. GlassesBlu

    GlassesBlu I'm a Greg Coded Tom Girl

    Im still very angry because
    - door handle of my condominium unit broke
    - have to replace it
    - admin says we have to replace it exactly the same
    - my dad says I should go buy the new handle
    - the nearest hardware store around has similar handles but not exactly the same and not the same brand
    - my dad insists I buy it because it will be ok and accepted because it is 'similar enough'

    And im so furious because that doesn't make sense at all, if the admin says it has to be exactly the same then it has to be exactly the same! The handles have some noticeable differences. I haven't been able to show the building people the door handle yet and I'm sick with waiting

    Maybe this anger will be for naught, but I feel like the stupid handle I currently have in my possession is such a huge potential waste of money and time and energy. I cut it open from the package, and I don't know how returnable that even will be

    I don't want my dad on my case, but I don't look forward to the fucking potential humiliation I will face open having the purchased doorknob be rejected by the building admin

    It doesnt fucking make sense to me why my parents insisted on the 'similar enough' handle. How is that even acceptable? The buildings have a standard, and so wouldn't this stupid out of place door handle stick out like a sore thumb and thus be rejected by those who manage the building???

    I'm already pre-humiliated. Pre embarrassed over this stupid door handle. I don't have the energy to go to farther away hardware stores, I don't have time, and I'm too much of a shmuck to disobey my parents. I'm just angry over just. This.
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  19. GlassesBlu

    GlassesBlu I'm a Greg Coded Tom Girl

    had a panic cause my gf wants to talk about TMA with me but only if im caught up and i dont know if and when i'll catch up cause im so afraid that those stupd fucks will have such a sad ending that itll break my heart and ill vomit
    i dont know why this anxiety is making me cry but it is im so so afraid of the tragic end that people seem so sure of
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  20. leitstern

    leitstern 6756 Shatter Every Sword Break Down Every Door

    I have been using the dumbest bad cope recently. I have been scheduling or jerry rigging my schedule so that tasks that might be emotionally difficult or anxiety0inducing are set on days when I have had no sleep the night before and am thus massively sleep-deprived. That, or if I know I have an emotionally taxing task ahead of me, I purposefully remove sleep from myself. I've been doing a lot of stuff that is so much harder if not impossible when I have my full person in my skull.

    Of course. I also can't do. Anything I would like to so. Like feel positive emotions, write, or care for my spouse properly, because I can't feel positive emotions. I would like for all of this stress to end soon.

    I was told I couldn't get my car registered today because I need my wife, who works during ALL of the DMVs working hours, to be there. And told I can't have new job I realllllyyyyy the fuck want if all of my references don't get back to them and it had been what would normally be a soul-crushing hellfire to track these people down and make them promote me like the fucking wage slave I am. And normally. I would be wrecked. But instead. I am just tired.

    Please don't learn this bad cope. It's not worth it. This is so close to just drinking instead and resembles it in several key ways.
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