Vent Walk-in freezer (general-purpose vent thread)

Discussion in 'Brainbent' started by seebs, Jun 1, 2016.

  1. anthers

    anthers sleepy

    I just have no baseline for 'is this ache normal' so even though I am fairly positive 'this hurts but only a bit of an ache when not being actively touched/bumped/cleaned' is fine the brain gremlins are all jumping me at once lmao
     
  2. leitstern

    leitstern 6756 Shatter Every Sword Break Down Every Door

    Ahhhh, here come the Zoloft eating troubles. A plate of great food, made by me, for me, after 5 hrs of work, and I can barely eat.

    Just gotta keep shoving it in. 1 bit per minute. That’s plenty of bites for 1 lunch break. Maybe too many even.

    ... is there an average bites per meal? Has that science been done?
     
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  3. ChelG

    ChelG Well-Known Member

    One of my friends elsewhere has an emotionally abusive flatmate. She complains about this woman on a daily basis, but tells me that she won't move out. I understand that it's more complicated than just "move out", but it's very frustrating to see from the outside and I can't imagine how much worse it is for my friend. I wish I could do something.
     
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  4. raydelblau

    raydelblau the giant rat who makes all of the rules

    instead of spending thanksgiving with my mother i'm hundreds of miles away, alone, buried in casebooks and crying about civil procedure
     
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  5. GlassesBlu

    GlassesBlu Deviant Android / Incel Fuckboy Simp

    A bit humorous thinking over my dumb issues but also just Bleh

    The need and want for validation over my art work vs the intense fear of being percieved and people getting some expectations (plus the current fandom landscape wrt antis)
    Entrenched with today's capitalist society making people feel like they have to make themselves valuable and game algorithms in order to rise to popularity like

    Oops don't perceive me its messing with my humanity!!!
     
  6. GlassesBlu

    GlassesBlu Deviant Android / Incel Fuckboy Simp

    Hme getting a very very small taste of BNF stuff: wow now I feel like I have to appeal to people and draw certain things and churn them out in a timely manner! This no longer feels fun it feels like an obligation because now im worrying about building an audience because I'm an artist and studying to be one and having an online audience somehow helps you in spreading your reach so people know about you and you can make yourself look good for possible remote job possibilities, as you do, as an artist like!

    Probably a mix of misconception and also just my thoughts being bad but! Oh feels so bad!

    Like super dropped out of the fandom because of those feelings haha! Can't even enjoy the thing itself cause I get major 'Fear Of Missing Out', regret, and guilt somehow! Wow! Cool! /s
     
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  7. raydelblau

    raydelblau the giant rat who makes all of the rules

    after many weeks of doing almost literally nothing but studying, i have officially bombed my contracts final. had a panic attack during the exam and could barely read the words on the page.

    fuckity fuckity fuck fuck fuuuuuuck
     
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  8. ChelG

    ChelG Well-Known Member

    I never think things out the correct amount. I overthought and panicked over coming out and it turned out my family don't mind at all (hell, my sister clocked me before I did!), and didn't think through my attempted business well enough and it failed. I can't tell what the correct amount of analysis to do on any given thing is.
     
  9. Everett

    Everett local rats so small, so tiny

    I keep getting mad at myself and venting at my friends, and they say its ok to vent but i just get more upset when i start talking about certain stuff. And i keep like not stopping myself until im basically having a meltdown in the group chat and rejecting anything positive that people are trying to tell me

    i am seeing a counsellor for this and other stuff but like this time i got upset by looking up the therapy we're supposed to be doing so idk what do besides just not talk to anyone when im upset
     
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  10. Alexand

    Alexand Rhymes with &

    Step 1: I put off sending a message to someone to inform them that I can't pay rent for their room anymore, because I'm afraid of them getting mad at me
    Step 2: I work up the courage to send the message
    Step 3: They get mad at me
    Step 4: ????
    Step 5: :^(
     
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  11. vuatson

    vuatson [delurks]

    god dammit, another one of my teeth has broken. an old filling broke off a molar.
     
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  12. ChelG

    ChelG Well-Known Member

    I found old pictures of me as a little kid. I was so pretty then and I thought I was hideous at the time, and I feel like now I'm actually ugly but I don't know whether I actually am or whether it's the same thing.
     
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  13. vuatson

    vuatson [delurks]

    the best author in my current, tiny fandom deleted all their fics sometime in the last couple of weeks. they posted it all anonymously so I can't even track them down to find out why, but I suspect it had something do with all the drama and hate going on recently. I seriously can't believe this, their writing was so good. hoping that maybe they took it down to repost somewhere? maybe?

    edit: can't even find it on Wayback because AO3 pages can't be archived there. this sucks.
     
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  14. ChelG

    ChelG Well-Known Member

    Sometimes AO3 author or fic pages can be archived, but finding them would be hard if it was anon. That sucks :(
     
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  15. vuatson

    vuatson [delurks]

    I managed to find out what happened - apparently they discovered that someone they'd been collab-ing with on a smutfic had been hiding the fact that they were a minor, and they felt betrayed and disgusted enough to delete everything and leave.

    completely understandable, fuckin sucks.
     
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  16. Verily

    Verily a very ineffective hitman

    Oh damn, that sucks for everyone.
     
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  17. ChelG

    ChelG Well-Known Member

    If you Google the names of the fics, you might find people linking to them from elsewhere, and you can get the URLs of them for the Wayback Machine from there? Sometimes it works, not always.
     
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  18. vuatson

    vuatson [delurks]

    I actually managed to dig the links out of my browser history, and no dice. I've never been able to find an ao3 work archived on the wayback machine. it's the one advantage of ffnet.
     
  19. spikekat

    spikekat mothman wannabe

    frustrated by my brain which has refused to let me do anything fun or constructive all break including: helping roommate with ptsd, paying attention to show i enjoy, paying attention to new!pal when hanging out, writing, reading, painting, being a good friend, eating an acceptable or nonpainful amount, or any of the things i had been looking forward to during stressful semester.
    and now roommate is out talking to his ex who makes me upset and will make him upset and i cant relax until he's home and i cant think of anything constructive to say or do when he does return
     
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  20. mystery nonny

    mystery nonny call me mystery (he/they)

    i know my friends are trying their hardest, really i do. but god it sucks to have them "she" me, especially when they should know better because i've only ever used "they" while knowing them
     
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