I mean I can take a stab at what they mean and probably look up some stuff but uh... I'm mainly asking cause I think I might have one, Avoidant Personality Disorder (AvPD) specifically and it's really fucking with my head. The description fits more than any other description of any mental illness I've ever seen and I'm both scared and confused. For a long time I thought being extremely wary of other people and having emotional blowups at other people and just flat-out avoiding the consequences cause I couldn't deal, I didn't (and don't) know how to avoid the damage or heal trust was just a part of me, but then I got more into actually working on my mental illness and I basically accepted it as part of brainweird that needed fixing. Now I learn that it's probably not, that it most likely actually is a part of my personality and I'm more than a little freaked out. How does this work?