the drama the trauma

Discussion in 'Brainbent' started by townghost, May 5, 2020.

  1. townghost

    townghost mystery crab

    if youre trans because you identify that way, and im trans because i was born that way. THAT DOESN'T AFFECT YOU, it doesn't make you less valid, no one asked for you to project that
    if you even understand your own bullshit then you would realize being transsexual is also an identity. if you accept difference then you would accept your own difference.

    whether i'm trutrans or not isn't what's being claimed by my identity. i'm just claiming my right to be considered as a full member of the opposite sex. there's nothing that contradicts you in that.
    youre being petty, jealous, and violent. if you're jealous, JUST BE TRUSCUM.
    you're doing it to yourself being tucute. it's an identity that you can claim
    you can just straight up lie
     
  2. townghost

    townghost mystery crab

    i wonder if people realize THAT THEY CAN JUST BE TRUSCUM
    it's a word. it's reclaimed
    you violently misunderstanding reclaiming doesn't make it go back
     
  3. townghost

    townghost mystery crab

    people put so much stock into like Being Cruel Is Necessary but don't really understand when it's necessary
    trans people that personally piss you off is... not a great example of a time t use necessary violence
    and it's sure as hell not an appropriate target practice
    THAT'S INSANE. we need all of us to survive

    whoa. this is so insane. people who have committed crimes and are in prison for crimes don't deserve their punishment... they deserve rehabilitation. drug addicts, they deserve rehabilitation.
    trans people who are cringy and annoying, deserve to live and be happy.
    why am i the only one who is ever saying this shit
     
  4. townghost

    townghost mystery crab

    "ostracizing truscum" is not an example of necessary or okay violence, its an example of a slippery slope to fascism...
     
  5. townghost

    townghost mystery crab

    "all the X people should just die" IS NEVER A THOUGHT YOU SHOULD BE HAVING
    ESPECIALLY NOT IN THE NAME OF TRANS ACTIVISM WHAT ARE YOU DOING
     
  6. townghost

    townghost mystery crab

    ive been ostracized. ive been left out in the rain... robbed... raped... and i thought it was okay because people told me that i deserved it
    but i didn't.
    i got caught in the lie that my existence and my voice can somehow harm trans political activism... i got caught in the slippery slope to fascism
     
  7. townghost

    townghost mystery crab

    anyway, we're in full 100% U.S. fascism now so there's no need to worry about trans fascism :|
     
  8. Ipuntya

    Ipuntya return of eggplant

    personally, i reject both positions. the truscum have a massive problem with gatekeeping. it’s not okay to attempt to be the arbiter of whether other people who identify as trans are truly trans. agender and nonbinary people are valid, and there is no one true way to be trans.

    and it’s also not okay for tucutes to insist that being trans must be a choice, or to judge and bully people for being “problematic”
     
  9. Ipuntya

    Ipuntya return of eggplant

    i believe most others here share similar sentiments to me
     
  10. kichi

    kichi mister indecisive

    i want to respond to the concerns here in a more nuanced fashion, but for now:

    there is a history for the truscum/tucute terminology and opposition that's been largely forgotten about. there's a discussion to be had here, and please don't assume that others have the same viewpoint as you.
     
  11. townghost

    townghost mystery crab

    i definitely agree...............i agree
     
  12. townghost

    townghost mystery crab

    i can’t fucking live in LA anymore until ruben leaves because they’re convinced i’m manipulative and need to be destroyed or something idk i can’t tell paranoid from reality right now i’m just going to be dealing with this shit for the rest of my life and i have to swallow it because i didn’t deserve my own place in the world i guess
     
  13. townghost

    townghost mystery crab

    all the other shit on top of the shit that needs to be resolved will also never be resolved because the root problem can’t be resolved of course i’m sorry to ruben and i don’t blame you ruben for being privileged but i’m still fucking dealing with this

    and i still think it was better to be doing drugs and on the streets because this? if i talk about it it’s abusive. if i’m on the internet it’s a lack of decorum and it’s a lack of privacy and it’s just like

    everything i wanted to avoid? the creeps i attract knowing about the ways they can hurt me and whoever else?

    i fucking rolled in a gang to escape this tranny internet artist life

    meanwhile?

    i’m still in love

    i never WANTED to hurt this person. at all
    the fear of doing that overpowers me.
    it clouds my judgement
    THEY
    are probably fine

    but i’m just having a slew of problems over here because i can’t both have self respect and this trauma, and keep living my life

    over here like god, please kill me if ruben doesn’t want me
    god: okay
    me: wait i changed my mind

    maybe i’m just fucking stupid
     
  14. townghost

    townghost mystery crab

    by the way... i still am green lighted. i’m a danger to society. the revolution is here
    and i’m having a fucking panic attack

    this is how i might go out

    not with a bang, but with a whimper
     
  15. townghost

    townghost mystery crab

    i wanted to make a statement that my life matters? and i ended up making a statement that my life

    doesn’t matter
     
  16. townghost

    townghost mystery crab

    i’m in the hospital my fingers can’t type
     
  17. townghost

    townghost mystery crab

    my thoughts right now are just a horrible place to be
    and have been
    for years
    not being allowed to focus on the positive because it’s like. creepy.
    there’s not much else in my life that’s really positive
     
  18. townghost

    townghost mystery crab

    they gave me some medicine to make sure it’s not acid reflux lol it could be , who knows my body is under so much anxiety
     
  19. Ipuntya

    Ipuntya return of eggplant

    i’m aware of the history, as this history is one of the factors that led to the creation of this forum, with the two others being the tumblr messaging system as being an ineffective means for mentally ill and traumatized users to speak with seebs, and the cataloguing of a harassment campaign orchestrated by a particular tucute. a majority of the original members of kintsugi previously identified as truscum, and congregated here to speak amongst ourselves somewhere where we wouldn’t be harassed, though most of us also eventually stopped identifying as such as the label increasingly became a rallying point behind which people gathered to dismiss nonbinary and agender identities. i’m one of those former truscum, and an early kintsugi member.

    so perhaps i might be making an assumption, but it’s an assumption based off of my knowledge of this forum’s history.
     
    Last edited: Jun 1, 2020
  20. Ipuntya

    Ipuntya return of eggplant

    you’ve my sympathy. i imagine messy breakups are even harder when you’ve got unreality problems
     
  21. townghost

    townghost mystery crab

    i think it’s important to remember the history of the word truscum begins with transphobia and is a manifestation of transphobia that nonbinary people enjoy and benefit from

    the concept that having dysphoria is wrong, ignorant, outdated, embarrassing, is nonbinary supremacy and the word truscum is a smaller symptom of that

    the disrespect and minimization of transsexuals continues to be a real
    problem in part because of your complacency in allowing these people to move unhindered in our community

    right now there aren’t a lot of people that are articulating that simply because we are tired, the transphobia hurts us.

    but that doesn’t mean the word truscum or what it represents has changed or gone away
     
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