inarticulate enthusiasm and complaining

yeah my sibling and I have similar hair and it's always worked for both of us so it might be a texture thing

 

it has been 9 hours and I still can't feel my tongue -_-

 

people keep calling me big brained on my minecraft sideblog and it's really going to my head

 

fuckin mood, the sheer feeling of power that comes with good reception to your work is so much honestly

 

HONESTLY

I've made multiple meta posts that got over a thousand notes... people are replying to them with more meta... it feels Good

 

Daaaamn, that's awesome!! Congrats friend!

 

this minecraft roleplay has one of the best depictions of emotional abuse I've ever seen

 

oh?? i'm intrigued...

 

It's fucking incredible holy shit.

(warning: you activated infodump mode lmao. please don't feel obligated to read it all :P)

Ok I'll try to redact the unnecessary parts of the backstory but. The two main players involved in this particular arc are Dream and Tommy. Also involved are Tubbo (Tommy's in-universe and real life best friend) and Wilbur Soot. This all takes place on a minecraft server owned by Dream. In real life he's kind of exploded recently, he went from a few hundred thousand subscribers a year ago to almost 14 million now. A while ago he started a server for him and his friends to play on and gradually began inviting other content creators who he thinks are very talented and who he's friends with. In the universe of the roleplay Dream has ended up being the villain and he is doing a scarily good job of it. (From now on I'll be talking about the characters, not the people playing them.)

Spoiler: I did not succeed in redacting the backstory

The plot of the server kicked off when Wilbur Soot was invited and immediately tried to found a little micronation (L'Manburg, yes it is a dumb name) within the SMP with Tommy, Tubbo, and a few other people. Tommy was his right hand man and protege. Dream opposed them on account of it was his server and there was a war. Dream had overwhelming force, but Wilbur ended up winning anyway through pure charisma. He was able to frame his side as the brave underdogs and Dream as a tyrannical oppressor despite the fact that the original reason for founding his nation was literally to have a legal place to sell drugs from. (There were a lot of Hamilton references.) Tommy eventually ended up offering Dream his most valued possession in exchange for a truce and official recognition of L'Manburg, and Dream accepted because the only other option would be to fully accept the reputation Wilbur had forced on him.

Ever since then Dream has been playing the long game to regain total control over his server. A LOT of political intrigue happened in the middle but the long and the short of it is that Wilbur and Tommy were exiled from L'Manburg after losing an election. Wilbur went mad in exile due to circumstances Dream partly orchestrated. He ended up blowing up L'Manburg with materials provided by Dream and died in the explosion. That took care of Wilbur, one of the two main obstacles to Dream's goal. (His amnesiac ghost still stuck around though because Wilbur obviously didn't want to leave the server :P) It also dealt a blow to Tommy's psyche.

In the aftermath, Tommy's attached-at-the-hip best friend Tubbo was made president of L'Manburg with Tommy as VP. Dream immediately began going around framing Tommy for destructive pranks. Tommy has a reputation for that kind of thing, and actually ended up robbing and griefing the house of the King of the rest of the server. Dream used this to pressure Tubbo into exiling his best friend by threatening the rest of the citizens of L'Manburg. It was an incredibly painful experience for both of them! After Tubbo caved in and complied, Dream rewarded him by praising his judgment and officially recognizing the new L'Manburg government, both rare things from him.

/backstory

Ok here is where the emotional abuse part starts! It is honestly artful. Dream brought Tommy a couple thousand blocks away from everyone else on the server and forbade him to come back. Any land that had been touched before was off limits to him. The only person who came with him was Wilbur's ghost which was. Not necessarily the most healthy companion. After he'd isolated Tommy, Dream started coming back every day and, if Tommy had managed to make any decent armor or weapons, having him throw them in a pit for Dream to destroy. He framed it as part of the exile punishment. After he'd done that, he would stick around for a while. He would casually talk to Tommy, hang out with him, insist that they were friends. Casually mention how well L'Manburg was doing now that he was gone. Talk about how good a job Tubbo was doing as president. And then leave Tommy alone again until the next day.

You can probably see where that's going. Through a combination of lies and half-truths, he's been convincing Tommy that none of his friends have visited because they don't want to visit. (In fact, it's a difficult journey and Dream never told them they were allowed to.) He's been parceling out little bits of help and protection after removing Tommy's ability to defend himself, cementing himself as Tommy's only friend. At the start, Tommy would strongly resist having to give up his armor and weapons to be destroyed - on today's stream, he immediately took them off and threw them on the ground as soon as he saw Dream approaching. Not because he was afraid Dream would hurt him but because that's just how it goes.

Today, Dream started something new. Before leaving, he actually gave Tommy a gift of a rare weapon which he'd found and enchanted himself. Re-arming Tommy on his terms. Every time Dream comes, Tommy asks to be allowed to go back to his friends, and Dream always says no. Today he also suggested that Tommy is doing just fine where he is, he doesn't need his friends - he could become strong and "build himself an empire" right here in exile.

the tl;dr of all of this is: Tommy is one of the few people on the server who's managed to be a serious threat to Dream. He's decided to deal with that by breaking him to his will and making him completely emotionally reliant on Dream while convincing him that his friends didn't actually like him and are doing better now that he's gone. Tommy was one of the only ones able to stand against him with his stubbornness and never-say-die attitude, so Dream is going to make him his weapon. Dream is incredibly good at giving himself plausible deniability and making his point of view seem reasonable, so no one has caught on to any of this yet.

Here's a couple videos with a few clips if you're interested:

Spoiler

cw, the kid is kinda suicidal


and a slightly longer one, the armor destruction bit is right at the beginning:


I'd add some of Tommy's own videos but his youtube channel hasn't caught up to the events of the server yet, since everything on his channel is edited down from his livestreams.

Worth noting that Tommy and Dream the real people are cowriting the plot for this arc. Dream is a well-known ADHD who hyperfixates like a motherfucker so I wouldn't be surprised if he's done hella research into emotional abuse and manipulation to write this. And both of them (most people on the server really) are really talented actors. Tommy and Tubbo especially, considering that they're both just 16! (Also funny sidenote: Tommy's attempts to be Sad And Alone for the plot keep getting derailed by other members of the server feeling bad and showing up to leave him presents. He's having to think of in-character reasons to reject them without ruining the flow of his character and it's hilarious.) It's honestly an amazing story and I didn't expect to be drawn in as much as I have been, but now I'm neck deep lol.

 

my god I am just totally unable to explain things briefly

I need to resign myself and start planning the rest of my life around the fact that the only setting I have is Paragraphs

 

like here. look at this clip from today's stream. it's on tumblr or I would embed it but it's just like a minute long

the fucking acting?? this kid never acted before about 4 months ago and now he's improv-ing the effects of sustained gaslighting infront of an audience of 150K daily and fucking killing it. what the fuck.

 

hello kintsugi, since last I posted here I have somehow become a sort of bnf in tumblr's newest Designated Annoying Fandom

how's everyone doing

 

wait which fandom is this??

 

Dream SMP, the same one I was talking about in the last few posts up there :D it's a minecraft roleplay server that has been going for less than a year but kind of exploded for various reasons, to the point where it's already reached Homestuck levels of outsiders going "what the fuck is this and why do people keep trying to tell me about it."

it's a real fun place to hang out tho!! as a fandom it's also very similar to homestuck in various ways which is probably why I fell into it so hard lol. here are a couple of short clip comps featuring various bits of fantastic acting/storytelling because Let Me Tell You About The Dr- /shot
https://farfran.tumblr.com/post/652023238860341248/farfran-business-partners-huh-wonder-where-he
https://businessbois.tumblr.com/pos...clips-i-feel-are-important-to-see-from-tommys
https://farfran.tumblr.com/post/651...ed-to-go-ahead-and-clip-this-line-delivery-bc
https://businessbois.tumblr.com/pos...my-having-mixed-feelings-about-alivebur-for-4

 

meant to go to bed early but I ended up staying up till 3 anyway talking a kid in a discord server I'm in through a struggle with some adhd-induced self loathing.

I feel incredibly lucky that I'm now in a position to help other people like that the way some people helped me at that age. the northfield crew, roachpatrol, and I'm sure dozens of other people who just happened to make posts on tumblr that hit me at just the right time, did so, so much for me as a kid. I don't even know where I would be if not for the knowledge and wisdom and stories I got from those people. I don't feel eloquent enough to pass it on the way I want to but I try to when I can and I'm so glad and grateful when I'm able to make a difference to someone.

 

I feel that in my soul. <3 You’re a good egg for helping out!

 

Ran a fanvid potluck with my discord today!! It's an idea I came up with a few days ago (tho I'm sure I'm not the first) - basically we all brought a few fanvids we like from any fandom and went around in order watching them together via discord screenshare! It was a lot of fun! I was persuaded to watch the owl house! Do recommend as a fun group activity!!

also I'm going to try to remember that my blogthread exists more often lol

 

THE OWL HOUSE IS SO FRIGGIN GOOD. Definitely lmk what you think!!

EDIT: Also I LOVE the fanvid potluck idea, I'm def gonna have to suggest it to some servers I'm in!!

 

https://amemait.tumblr.com/post/688621639518273536/athingofvikings-seventhscorpio-luckyladylily

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