Things that are currently annoying you

my dad!!! is a trashbag!!!!!

 

anD ANOTHER THING
I got a physics test back today and he handed it back with a smile and a "nice job!" and I sorta sighed like, phew, okay, maybe I scraped a high grade on this one
I got a 71
why the fuck would he tell me that I did a good job

 

everything
my emotions
people disagreeing
hiding behind a sock
i'm not real right now.

 

i have a ton of things to do so instead i am surfing the web and posting here while having unpleasant panicky feelings. this is stupid.

also accidentally allowed myself to be drafted into church choir and at my first practice was handed the music for "christmas peace," a mashup of half a dozen traditional christmas pieces. dear arranger, let's meet in a dark alley, i have something i wish to communicate to you.

 

Spoiler: tmi

i hurt my hand jerking off. not too bad, but fuck i was trying to relax here./SPOILER]

 

my ear is clogged up with wax again.
like, come on, ear, can't you just stop? putting hydrogen peroxide into you is very uncomfortable.

 

*tries to go to sleep*
*ends up staying awake thinking about how i hate my family's christmas plan to go basically to two places this year, one familiar (the cottage) and one not (a ski resort in quebec that's more than seven hours away), and that i'm not yet independent enough to be allowed to skip out on going to the second one and my family would probably be upset if i did*
just... ugh, like i might be alright with it if my family was just going to one of those places but i dunno if i can with them going to two. especially since, even though there will be internet in both, there is a rp on here that i'm very invested in and don't wanna end up missing out on.
and the cottage is the one'd prefer, btw, and the one where my family actually will celebrate christmas.
(and for the record, i don't even ski 'cause it's too cold for me when snow's on the ground, so going to a far away ski resort won't even come with that benefit for me.)
i'm too fucking autistic for this christmas plan shit!

 

I want to look at online circulars and plan what to shop for next week, but I already did that this week. Damn my forward planning :(

 

everyone. everything. and i'm not allowed to be bothered or take a break.

 

the graphics tablet i use at the cottage doesn't seem to be here, even though i'm sure it was the last time i went here
wtf

 

@rats and I made homemade marshmallows, but we Apparently fucked it up (either by virtue of not having a candy thermometer or bc we did not whip the mixture for long enough) and they're soggy. And super gross to look at. My mom said she liked how they tasted so I haven't thrown them out yet. So they're just. In the microwave (safest place from cats). Being soggy and gross. I keep remembering they're there and being freaked out.

 

at least the cookies were delicious

 

the cookies ARE delicious. and my dad also says the marshmallows taste good!

 

I'd suggest using the failed marshmallows as marshmallow fluff ... on ice cream, or waffles, or pancakes. or just for eating! or some people make marshmallow fluff sandwiches...

 

For some reason Gmail is fucking up my boolean searches. Specifically, it's no longer allowing me to specify things that shouldn't appear in results, which makes sorting through my emails very difficult.

 

Roommate promised dinner. Started pasta sauce simmering 3 hours ago. The sauce is done, but no noodles. Tempted to passive aggressively make noodles myself. Considering bracing myself to just ask roomie about the food thing.

 

my left ear hurts!

 

I just discovered that when I filed a petition for a change of name and gender, all I got back was an order to change gender. What kind of cruel fucking joke

 

I have got to stop trying to appeal to logic when dealing with these sorts of things. But I don't speak bureaucracy :(

 

It's time for happy blood sacrifice week! Very seasonal timing, starting today. Only a week later than I expected. Feel like I was pmsing for two weeks.