shitposting rave 2, electric boogaloo

Please don't. Pearl doesn't usually behave like this. I have no idea why she's being so beastly to you.

 

*sighs* Well, yes, that makes sense, I know. I'd still expect shapeshifting to be easier for someone made of hard light than someone made of metal, however. Light is light and metal is... well, metal.

There is no number of conversations that makes it fine for you to use her against me.

 

I understand being insecure. I struggle with it.

It does not make her threats against me acceptable. I am not feeling well, even though she is small and likely could not harm me unarmed.

 

I believe it wouldn't bother you so much if what he was saying weren't true. And I can certainly see how unhappy Melon is right now.

 

No, I don't think the way she's behaving is the least bit acceptable, but I don't know what to do about it. If we were in my home...

*sighs*

Pearl, this is not worthy of a member of my household.

 

Consider: perhaps trouble shapeshifting not a flaw on part of Pearl.

Perhaps Pearl has other strengths.

Unfair to measure self by benchmarks set by others.

 

Do you really want to test that theory?

*sighs* I guess...

But telling me how you think I really can't harm you unarmed, Iridium, is not helping. Yes, I know I'm not good enough. Can you all just stop rubbing it in?

 

Only theory. Unsure of strength granted by hard light form. Designed to withstand re-entrance of atmosphere and potential crashes from orbit.

 

Pearl, nobody here thinks you're not good enough. You have done amazing things. I wouldn't be upset by the way you're acting if it weren't beneath the Gem I know and admire. You weren't designed to be a shapeshifter. I'm not very good at it, either.

Do you think I'm big and clunky because I'm not lithe and delicate like you are?

 

Well, I'm glad it's only a theory...

 

Unsure of strength granted by hard light structure. Presumptive to assume strength. Moreover, small size not bad thing.

But.

We will not be friends.

 

No, no, no, no... I really don't.

You're made of hard light, not metal. I wasn't talking about litheness and delicacy, I was talking about solidity. Transformers are more solid than Gems are.

Fine.

 

Close-minded.

We are not fluid. We transform. You assumed shapeshifting. You attacked me. You invalidated my personhood. You called me a drone. Now, you are making sad noises.

 

I did not call you a "drone"!

 

You think you are the only person who has known loss? Everyone on my world died. I came home and buried my Backdraft and my students and my friends and my co-workers and people I'd passed on the street and never talked to and I buried and buried and buried and there were millions left to deal with.

Don't talk to me about loss.

 

But I supposed I am not a person. I am a thing people build. I am a drone just made to do certain tasks. Why do you not go rebuild my entire world. Give me back what I have lost. Then I will call you superior.

We will not be friends. Sadness does not justify cruelty, and you are cruel.

 

We had a war! Now the only Gems on Earth - or well, that used to be there - are Garnet, Amethyst, Steven, Lapis, Peridot, Jasper and I!

And all the other Gems that used to be there, they're all shattered or corrupted!

 

So that means you can be cruel?

 

That means you're not the only one here who's had one, that's lost people.

 

You did not even ask who I was before you threatened to hurt me for speaking up.

Do not be ashamed of what you are. But maybe be a little ashamed of who you are, right now.