Good news: My body's first line defence systems against bacteria are working properly! Bad news: Spoiler: gross They are currently making me violently expel my stomach contents...
Good news: My sunburn has healed in some places! Bad news: The parts that aren't healed are still itchy and flaky. Good news: At least I tanned a little! Bad news: The shape of the tan is really weird and splotchy. XD
good news: the bathroom floor tiles are placed in a really fascinating geometric pattern :D bad news: why am I in the bathroom? I am at church. help.
good news: cats. bad news: cats insist that potted plants should be on the floor, not on the windowsill. there is dirt all over the floor. help.
Bad news: my throat hurts, I have a mild allergy or cold and life is low-key pain and I have to spend the day outside. Good news: I have to spend the day outside because I have a well-paying job and am an art student, who has art lessons
Bad: I knew growing older will hurt but no one told me getting older entails Really Hard Work. It can't just be, ugh, feeling flabby and weird lumps showing up. Probably nothing, no, it's Spoiler: outta control cells maybe cancer. IS that cancer? Fuuuuuck, gotta go the doc's, which means dealing with the general population which means gotta be on best behavior lest the police mistake your bad day for a gun and you end up dead by mistaken identity because they felt threatened. Good: Check up was good! Bad: Spoiler: another mental illness label slapped on me diagnosed schizophrenic. Good: Already taking the medication for it. Neutral: Argueing with Doc on Monday, sort of able to process diagnosis today-ish. Spoiler: me being obstinate No, I'm not. You're taking medication for it already. Quetiapine is also taken for autism, bipolar and PTSD, the former two I'm not, the latter I am. The dosage you are on is for schizophrenia, the pills helping with the other symptoms is a very good side affect. Fuck you. And everything and everyone else, too.
Good news: there's an online booking form for healthcare stuff where I live! :D Bad news: when I used the online booking form and specified what I need a time for (referral to psych/therapy/whatever) they emailed me back saying 'oh no, that's alright, we have a psychologist on staff here!!' and gave me her phone number rather than just giving me a time why i then braved the phonecall, got to voice mail, and probably messed that one up terribly because I haven't heard back from her aaaand now I have to wait until after the weekend before I even know if I should call again or not :I again, i ask; why
Good news: awesome party tonight! Really totally awesome Bad news: ofcourse I don't think of anything I could have sung live until I get home XD
Good: I am having fun doing a pixel commission for Kaylotta Bad: I really should be asleep right now. I'm not even staying up cause it needs to be done tomorrow, just because it's fun. gdi
good: got a scarf and 4 pairs of boxerbriefs, v comfy and cute bad: having worn one from the 3-pack i bought, i now remember why i previously got the longer-leg ones: r o l l u p they are rolling up due to my level of Thigh Power and it detracts from the comfiness. maybe the 4th, unrelated pair will not do the thing?
Good: nice hike. Bad: I just pulled over a dozen ticks off of various portions of my anatomy and I am going to be feeling things crawling on me all day.
Bad News: customer flipped her shit at me because her card wouldn't go through. Hello anxiety tears! Good News: supervisor was right there and intervened before Customer could really get going. I have a half hour break, warm food, and chocolate to calm down, and I will be Okay.
most of this is bad news because crappy day was crappy good news: it rained today! finally, it's been threatening to for ages. bad news: there's apparently a huge leak in my sister's room, the roof looks to be threatening to cave in if it gets any more water and it's supposed to rain heavily for three more days. also the garage apparently isn't sealed properly and it half flooded (the floor is tilted) and we lost some of our stuff. more good news: my brother's friend's wedding was today! the cake was delicious. more bad news: see again: rain, at an outside wedding. also since we were busy trying to shuffle our stuff out of the water we missed the ceremony (which my brother was supposed to be the maid of honor at), which they ended up holding in their living room. when we got there it was extremely crowded and people kept brushing up against me, and it was so loud. i almost had a huge meltdown in front of everyone and was basically in sensory hell the whole time. that cake really was delicious, though.
Bad news: I went to buy new clothes and gave up halfway through trying them on because I had intense dysphoria and felt very bad about how everything fit. Good news: I have already successfully reminded myself that I'm a cute motherfucker who possesses inherent worh no matter how bad I feel, ALSO now the money I had set aside for clothes (which I don't really need, I just wanted to maybe get cute things) will instead go towards nice art supplies and fabrics!
Good news: Younger cousin is getting into tabletop RPGs, and is gonna be DMing his first campaign this summer! Bad news: He either has no idea about or is not revealing the plot and setting besides "general high fantasy" and wants characters generated by the end of the week and now my anxiety is screaming because how the hell do I build a character when I don't know what I'm building them FOR and also I don't know who else is playing and what level of gender- or brainweird is acceptable and [screaming] And also I have very little spoons for creative things this week anyway so like :T I know I already told Cousin I might not be able to play because Erratic Work Schedule but. I don't want to ditch just because I can't handle Too Many Options, that's. Mm. Shut up brainbugs.
have you told him about any of those worries? (the Too Many Options, don't know what the character is for, and don't know who else is playing, at least. the gender/brainweird thing at the end there might be risky to talk about.)
The good news: my brain is doing slightly better today The bad news: it's still obsessed with having a boyfriend and kissing him. Stupid brain.
Update! Good news: I know who's playing Bad news: Older Bro is in the playgroup, which means if I play I'm gonna have to deal with his bigoted-in-every-direction bullshit :| Now that I have time I'm gonna email him about the first two things, yeah.
Good news: psychologist didn't hate me on sight and she may not believe i could possibly have avpd (because if i did i wouldnt suspect i did, so the fact i even know my behaviour is abnormal means it's something else) but at least i have another time scheduled for next week! bad news: lost my balance on the bus and scraped the skin off my heel :| oww. also don't have a napkin or anything to wipe the blood with. at least too distracted by physical pain to think much of anything else for now? Spoiler: probably huge picture of bloody heel
