i planned my day out all productive and got everything mandatory done and even some non-mandatory things, and now i am sitting here at 9:30 pm miserable because i haven't written anything. and i want to write something. but if i write something, it won't be perfect. so, obvious solution, edit some old writing, right? that way it feels like i'm getting something done, and i've actually done very little? wrong! that's cheating, and that's bad. and i need to write something. but it won't be perfect. which i cannot abide. scream at me until i do it.
do you think it would help at all to try and shift the goalposts of 'perfect' to something more doable (or at least more tangibly pursuable than 'perfect writing')? one of the only ways i can get myself to write nowadays is with the site wordwars.io; seeing my wpm projected on the screen in realtime makes it so, so much easier to actually get words down without agonizing over them for a year, because it's way less time-and-energy-consuming (and, well, verifiable) to remedy a Perfection Fumble of 'i have not written a sentence in the last five seconds' than it is to remedy 'i have not written a Perfect Sentence.' (plus it's just harder to obsess over the words themselves when you're watching the wpm meter instead while you type whatever bullshit springs to mind, as invariably happens with me.)
i've tried using that awful little add-on that deletes all your progress if you don't type for 5 seconds. it's great for actually getting me to my word goal, but i would not have posted the thing in 'brains' under the title 'brain gremlins' if perfectionism wasn't the issue. i know i'm capable of better, so the fact that i can't for some reason produce it makes writing anything at all like pushing out splinters. bluh bluh i gotta do it. but. i don't wanna and i'm gonna be a big baby about it.
ahhh, i gotcha; my issues tend to lie more in the way of being easily distracted by perfectionism because i have a goldfish attention span, so i don't have a ton of advice to offer on how to beat 'this shouldn't be made if it's not perfect,' but witnessed. (also, if it will help at all, here is a nudge to go write you a thing. five sentences go!)
....you have a much better sentence length than me. (If I'm not careful, my sentences start averaging about fifty words in length each, because apparently I forget how to use full stops when I'm writing or something.)
one of the characters has pretty significant traumatic brain damage and has to pause and think a lot. it's fic don't look @ me. it really drags my average down. Spoiler: a short little excerpt for ur time :* and then there's a little more but the whole thing needs 90 years of edits.
