Reasons My Kintsugijin is Crying, or; The Weepy Marshmallow Brigade

I spent an entire car journey inconsolably sobbing because I couldn't remember the name for an 11 sided shape.

I watched the 'defending Hogwarts' scene of the last Harry Potter movie.

I watched a video someone had made with Carl Sagan narrating his 'Pale Blue Dot' speech over clips of movies.

I realised that there would never be any new Joy Division songs.

I wrote a bit in to my D&D OC's backstory about him being betrayed by the woman he loved, but he still doesn't know it and has been grieving for her for years because he thinks she died during a battle, but she's alive and was one of the reasons the battle happened in the first place because she snitched on him.

I watched a Save The Children advert where the main little girl looked just like my sister did at that age.

And finally, I don't remember what set me off but there was one day where I started crying pretty much as soon as I woke up and spent my whole morning doing my normal routine, just crying the whole time. Had a shower whilst crying. Made a cup of tea whilst crying. Did some laundry whilst crying. It was wild.

 

I am crying now because of a song

 

... And now I've remembered the Pale Blue Dot speech thing I need someone to forcibly restrain me from watching it again, because my faith in humanity is at an all time low right now and I don't think I could handle it. And I really want to finish this bowl of pasta which would be difficult if I was noisily sobbing.

 

Also, these pictures that were put on a disc in the Voyager spacecraft: http://imgur.com/a/CvEvO

 

Oh god, don't get me started on the Golden Disc. One of its contents is an hour-long recording of Carl Sagan's wife's brainwaves. She thought about a bunch of different things, but set aside time right at the very end to think about how much she loved her husband.

 

On a similar note, the fuckin Discovery Channel boom de yada video gets me every time. HUMANS ARE REALLY COOL SOMETIMES

 

Emotional plotting of things.


(Also everyone's gay robots in Galleys turn are cute)

 

that one pokemon superbowl commercial gets me every time.

 

I cried when I found out my issues are because of my celiac and not because of some moral failing on my part

 

:hugs the heck out of u:

 

I just got some albums I ordered in the mail and while I was looking at the photobook, a candy bar fell out of the box and I teared up from a combination of cute-photobook and unexpected-candy-bar.

 

when I was on the bus today there was this cute little dog that was the color of a toasty marshmallow. got to scritch its head and everything

but when I asked the owner what its name was, the bus was too loud and he didn't hear me

 

Crying.

 

I cried over the end poem from minecraft.

I don't play minecraft.

 

guinea pig licked my nose.... so smol and gentle

 

i cried because i remembered kittens existed

i also cried because i remembered i have friends who love me

 

i ate my ice cream too quickly and got brain freeze

 

the last book in a series i love managed to ruin the entire thing in retrospect so nastily and thoroughly that i don't know if i even want to fucking bother with the incredible amount of work it would take to ever make anything not-horrible from/for it again, and this being me we're talking about that is an accomplishment

i was so invested and i was so fucking excited to finally be able to Write In-Depth Fic for it and now i am Actually Sobbing because it's unfixably ruined whoops

 

Which book series is this?

 

lorien legacies

the tags on this post sum up the worst of it fairly well, i think; it really, really says something about a book when

Spoiler: spoilers i guess

your favorite character, one of the few characters you identify a lot with and a really good sympathetic-but-fucked-up character you've spent years coming up with meta for and rooting for a decent bittersweet ending to the arc of, having his face ripped off and then being left to starve to death alone while the other characters talk about how he deserves it all and they don't care if he lives or dies

is one of the least upsetting things that happens. ugh. i want to make a thread for ranting about terrible book endings so i don't fill this one up with screeching but holy balls of fucking fire the pure horror this book's ending has managed to inspire in me is unprecedented