shitposting rave 2, electric boogaloo

Well, that's what moirails are for.

 

Been there, done that, got the Earth t-shirt. It's not good for anyone.

 

And inordinately grateful for it. <>

But.. Riki's not wrong. That's kind of a first. The closest to nonadversarial relationships previous is, well, the team from Chicago, and that's more comrade-clade-type than anything, and had its fair does of internal conflicts.

Shhh, I am sharing my Delicate Feelings.

 

Valiska and I couldn't stay in one quadrant if our lives depended on it.

 

-scandalised gasp-

 

Sounds rough. Wanna talk about it, or do you have someone?

 

pfff okay, Sakura Purinsu, you go jam about your feels, I'll get the animu sparkles queued up for you

 

*sighs* *smiles softly* Yeah. When you put it like that, I can see it. Like, Pap, it's sweet how idealistic he is, how he believes that people can all be good, and it makes him him, but it's also... kinda impractical. Which is exasperating sometimes but I wouldn't go without it. And Sunshine, Sunshine's... he joined Bill to do what was right and yeah, he kinda does have boundary issues with Ford and I think the Sufferer thing is half-bullshit, but... it's what makes him him and I dunno if I'd like him if he didn't have at least some of it.

Ah. Yeah. Good point. Sorry. *sighs* I wonder why Pap and Sunshine even like me, when I keep acting so ungrateful for them.

Yeah. True. It does feel safe, them knowing. Like nothing fucked up I do will ever make them leave, as long as I remain myself when I do it, as long as it's the type of thing I'd do.

And now you've put it that way, I guess it is scary. I sure know I'm a fuck up. If someone felt for me exactly what I felt for Sev, I'd wonder if they had their head on straight. I'd wonder if they'd even met me. Heck, Pap and Sunshine know my flaws, yet I still have trouble believing in their love for me sometimes.

 

Not the sparkles. Anything but the sparkles.

Besides, didn't you get the memo? I'm canonically a Rose Petal type anime prince now.

 

If I had to guess? Bet it's one of those flaws they acknowledge you have, and love you anyway. ^_____^

*sticks hand in air, opens mouth*

*closes mouth, angrily deletes several cue cards*

FINE! I'll go get yer fucking rose petals, then! *grumblegrumble* anime princes *grumblegrumble* always with the botany fetishes can'tstopwon'tstop

 

Consider that primarily a statement regarding my general stance on romance, with disgust directed at myself because romantic inclinations are... disgusting. I do appreciate the offer, so thank you, but no.

I am going to go stomp on him until I feel better though.

 

*grins* They're very nice roses! And you are the best video editor, It Is You.

 

Don't forget the slice of roasted bread. He's going to be late anyways.

Sounds good to me.

 

And uh. Sorry for scaring you. I didn't mean to. I don't wanna do that.

Just... I don't think I've ever been adored the exact same way I adore you, so... I guess I idealize it a bit, 'cause of that. Idealize getting any kind of affection, really, since it's all ridiculously new to me.

*smiles softly* I sure hope so. That and that I'll get over it, but that would be a good start.

 

...ooooooh!

 

I actually appreciate the apology.

Figuring out healthy relationships is hard. I'm glad you're getting the chance to do that with your partners.

 

Aaaaaw.

Wait, is that a good thing for you two?

 

Wait.

You think romantic inclinations are... disgusting?

 

DAMN RIGHT! *flounces off in a swirl of neon feathers*

*flounces right back in because she's not done talking yet*

Hey, everybody's gotta start somewhere, and you've been through like, a geologic epoch of shit. It's gonna take time, but you'll get better.

 

*sighs* Yeah. It is.

*smiles softly* I'm glad too. Really glad. And just... I feel silly sometimes, crushing on you when I have them. It's not that you don't deserve my love, that's not why. You deserve it. It's 'cause they want me and I want them and you don't want me, and yet... my gaze keeps wandering to you. Not all the time, just some of it, but yeah... enough that I'd understand if they felt unappreciated.

You didn't see the fight he had with me earlier in here?

It's nice that you guys believe in me. Really, really nice.