Reasons My Kintsugijin is Crying, or; The Weepy Marshmallow Brigade

my grandma's being really hateful lately.

 

I'm crying because I'm almost done with a 200,000k word fanfic and the chapters are getting longer but the drama doesn't stop happening ever. WHY MUST ROBOTS WHO TURN INTO CAR AND A TAPEDECK DO THIS TO ME? #transformerfanproblems

 

Grreat
my parents didnt think to mention that there was a pride parade today
until this morning
and now I have to pick between my planned movie stream with you guys
or my first pride parade

IF THEY HAD JUST GODDAMNED TOLD ME I COULDVE ASKED YALL IF WE COULD MOVE IT

fucking hell
its in an hour, so I have an hour to decide
fuck this entire situation
especially because I'm angry crying

 

i cried a lot today, so much stuff is happening to my family and friends.

 

I had a very hard and triggery afternoon, which means this evening I have been extra prone to crying, giving me even stranger than usual reasons for being a weepy marshmallow. The selection includes:

• my wife's legs were soft
• no, i didn't want to look at the chipmunk outside the window
• star wars theme music and the nostalgiafeels thereof
• my wife caught an eevee

 

Fanworks exchange finished and I'm too [some adjective that I can't even find right now] to look and so I feel bad because I haven't thanked the creator yet.

 

i know this probably sounds especially dumb but i got really emotional about how much the jacket for my first cosplay my best friend/moirail did sewing work on means to me

that jacket to me symbolizes all the love. help and support she's given me since we became friends and i like to bundle up in it when i'm feeling especially isolated or lonely, because the jacket reminds me that there is always someone who will love and care about me no matter how withdrawn and forgettable i become, and it makes me feel like she's here with me, even while she's moved away to a different state to get away from her family

it's one of my most important possessions and i cried so much telling this to her

 

https://www.instagram.com/p/BE2K-Z2n368/

dogs are too good just by existing for some reason this video out of all of them just set me off bawling

 

god i just think i can't handle this specific dog it looks like a living needle felt

https://www.instagram.com/p/_qCNXfn39o/

 

disenfranchised grief

 

I gasped very loudly
that dog is so cute
I might cry

 

"Amount of dishes in your room" shaming

 

Main reason: My bf's work wouldn't give him time off to come to my grandfather's funeral. And they're making him go up north for a project on the day I get back, so I'll get back from the funeral to an empty house, and will be alone for several days. Which sucks.

Secondary reason: I just listened to 'Bite Through Stone' by Ceschi and remembered the gig I saw him at where he got in to the crowd with his guitar and sang it and everyone was just so in to it and eugh. I love indie rap concerts.

 

i saw a wip of big fancy painted fanart someone's doing for a fic i wrote in a really tiny fandom and i don' know how to react so there's just, tears

 

Me: Ok but consider: baby toes
@Kit: *stares at me dumbfounded for a beat*
Kit: *starts sobbing*

... my kintsugijin is crying because baby toes.

 

my dad's an alcoholic, and I'm really scared he's going to kill himself with it sooner or later.

 

my friend accidentally quoted my ex and i was overcome with the feeling that they despised me and i had Ruined Everything Forever.

 

Both my parents were alcoholics.

Witnessed. If you ever need to talk about it, well, I can't promise to be online/available 24/7, but I'll get back to you as soon as I see your message.

 

on a lighter note, I fixed my computer audio (fucking finally) and immediately proceeded to watch a Gravity Falls fan video. cue the waterworks.

 

Oh G-d which one.