ask anything about DID

eh, well, no better place to start than there, i guess? cedar would probably speak up if they minded, they are cofronting and all, and we're able to communicate pretty damn clearly, so i'm just going to assume it's fine for me to talk there.

 

Hi, Ray! Good to meet you, and welcome to the forum :)

 

okay, welp, Ray's apparently done for the day, because he just....suddenly abandoned front, so....yeah!

 

I found a joke on Tumblr
"I don't have a nervous system, I am a nervous system"
because I am a system
and I have anxiety
get it?

 

#relatable #content

 

Also, I find it kinda funny that two different people saw that post and immediately thought of you.

 

my influence grows with each passing day
:P
(I enjoyed that you both thought of me)

 

this-is-not-dissociative is taking mod applications I WANT TO APPLY BUT I'M NERVOUS

 

I applied
waits with bated breath
please let them say yessssssssssssssss

 

awww
they said no
I'm too new to my diagnosis and don't know the community well enough, they decided
;~;

 

Took that DES test for Science, scored 22. Dislike the 1-10 scale bc I can't pretend to be that accurate, so I kinda ballparked every question that wasn't 0.

 

i was reading on that blog and:

could someone consider themselves a natural (like thinking their DID isn't caused by trauma) not because they've never been through trauma but because their DID means they dont have the memories of there being trauma -- because alter has those? and they can't access the alters thoughts/memories?

 

That sounds like a thing that's likely to happen. On the other hand, it's surely only a matter of time between starting to communicate with one's alters and stumbling across the truth.

 

The other thing I'd assume would be the whole 'well-that-can't-be-traumatic, it-wasn't-that-bad' sort of thing. (Or just not really having memories at all, like who has reliable memories from 6-9?)

 

this can definitely happen, yes.

this can also be a thing. but most people who've gone through a trauma as a kid seem to either have some kind of memory of it or just have a big blank space and memories around it. I have pretty reliable memories from 3-4, then nothing from 5-6, and then memories again from 7 onward. it is very possible for have reliable memories from being a kid, and having a giant blank space there in a DID person is usually indicative of trauma.

 

huh. fascinating.

 

yes! it's all very interesting, imo.
and also, the thing about 'might believe they're a natural system simply because they don't remember trauma/another alter holds the trauma' is sort of why, while I side-eye the heck out of people who claim natural systems are a thing, I wouldn't challenge a natural system, or try and force them to admit the thing they think they are isn't real, or ridicule them.

 

that makes sense, yeah!

I get confused about memories because I don't really have memories of being a kid at all, and I tend to assume that that goes for other people too because otherwise that means it's probably linked to abuse and dissociative stuff and pretending totally makes things go away. Clarification is always good. (and yeah, I also find it super interesting, if it's not weird to say so? brains are weird and fascinating and glitchy.)

 

that's fair! I know quite a few people have memories of being a kid, and like I said, I have some as well, but it's also totally a thing to not remember that much of being a kid. (it's totally fine to say that! brains are weird and fascinating and glitchy. I love and hate them.)

 

...so a pendulum blog I follow got an ask where someone wanted to know if they were a system or not, and the pendulum said yes
and now there's like five different people sending the blog asks about "how dare you you enabling enabler natural systems aren't real pendulums aren't correct you just helped a faking faker you gross monster self-dx isn't real or correct and faking a system hurts real people APOLOGIZE NOW"
I'm just
why do these things always turn into a giant shitstorm