I'm Socratease! It's been a while since I've been part of a real internet community, and even longer since I've made introductions, so this might be a bit rambly. My usual strats for this kind of thing is to just kind of inflict myself upon the community at large but that's rarely ended well so, yeah, here goes. I live in Iceland and I'm a student of computer science at Reykjavik University. I'm depressed, autistic, chronically perfectionistic, and the one cursory diagnostic survey I took with my first therapist indicated strong signs of ADD. I had an extended depressive period in my second year and failed like three semesters in a row and have been taking a reduced course load ever since so now when people ask me what year of college I'm in I just kind of shrug. My dream is to make things, but I only recently beat down my perfectionism enough to be able to start writing a thing without feeling violently ill, though working on the thing remains difficult. It's near-impossible for me to start or finish anything I care about because I know bone-deep that it will never be good, I will never be good, and nothing I do will ever come close to being even acceptable. Wow when I was planning this thing in my head this whole post sounded so much more upbeat. Anyway! Big fan of Steven Universe, Homestuck (though I'm actually shamefully far behind and not sure how/where to resume because issues), video games, various shows, cartoons, animes, webcomics (To name a very few: Schlock Mercenary, Sister Claire, El Goonish Shive, Unsounded, Gunnerkrigg, Girl Genius, Guilded Age, Questionable Content, GRRL Power, Widdershins, Leftover Soup, Paranatural, RWBYQuest, Streetcrows), etc. Also got into regular comics recently, specifically Miss Marvel and Thor. I play Pathfinder sometimes, I have a League of Legends account (though it's been a while since I played), my tumblr is namingisdifficult, I love anecdotes, metal, Game Grumps, juvenile humor, Fallen London, and creepypasta. (The Holders and the SCP Foundation have a special place in my heart and I am an instant sucker for any narrative that even approximates one or the other.) I tend to go through a cycle of liking things, then being dead inside, then liking things, then being dead inside. Feeling like fermented shit is normal to me, so I might not even notice that I haven't had a single real emotion for months, or that I don't actually remember what, if anything, happened in the last couple of weeks. Having to rebuild my entire self every few months is getting annoying and exhausting! Looking forward to hanging out with y'all!
Looks pretty up-beat to me! ;D Congrats on doing things in spite of your perfectionism, you are my new role model! (I'm also a perfectionist and don't know what to do with myself because obviously if Thing isn't going to be perfect on Try#1 it's not worth trying... =p)
hi! i love your username. :D also, steven universe! cool! what are the other cartoons that you like? (fairly oddparents, perhaps?) and wow, iceland! like, this is probably the first time i've met anyone from there. and damn, i sure get those perfectionism feels. 'cause i have anxiety and yeah... it has pretty much (not entirely, exactly, but pretty much) stopped my creative-type stuff for a while now. (and tumblr just makes it worse, with how it is so... you know, tumblry.) so yeah... and feel totally free to inflict yourself upon kintsugi - we're a pretty welcoming site! :D
Thank you all for the welcome! My computer just kinda fried itself and my step-dad brought up his old box which I'm using for now, so before I re-install Minecraft on this one and get back to spending every waking moment on the server, I can respond to things! Also this box has Windows 10 and the keyboard's defaulted to the US layout so I have no idea how to make most punctuation or symbols so typing this is going to be a bit of an adventure @Wiwaxia : I KNOW RIGHT MYSTERIOUS CROW LADY AND BADASS DUANE AND CREEPY CUTTER AND JUST AAA @Key : I know that precise and exact feel, and the accompanying pervasive and all-consuming helplessness. @unknownanonymous : I loved Fairly Oddparents when I was younger! Other cartoons that come to mind are Gravity Falls, which I'm super hyped for, and Gatchaman Crowds, which I just holy shit love so much. I also marathoned No Game No Life and Log Horizon a while back - I'm a HUGE sucker for game-based stories. A friend of mine recommended Scooby-Doo: Mystery Incorporated to me, but I only made it through the first season of that before I got tired of waiting for something actually supernatural to show up, since he specifically called the series 'Lovecraftian'. @littlemissCodeless : Awesome! I'm not sure I have anything worthwhile to add aside from 'Fuck yeah Heterodynes!' though @Bel Capricorn , @pixels : Thanks, I'm glad you like it! It's a hell of a step up from my old handle, 'Violinist'. @jacktrash : Nice to meet you too!
@Socratease awesome! did you have a fave fop character? also, are you familiar with norm the genie (a character from fairly oddparents)? he's my absolute fave, basically. gravity falls is pretty cool, yeah. i haven't watched any of those animes or mystery incorporated before (though i have watched other scooby doo stuff, when i was younger), though.
