"Silly" and "strange" triggers

I used to think I didn't have any triggers but then one time my friend invited me to an improv night at a comedy club and watching the show made me start crying, I was so uncomfortable and anxious...felt like my hair was standing straight up & my skin wanted to fly off in all directions. I get the same feeling trying to watch Who's Line is it Anyway or any other improv, non-scripted type thing and this includes stuff like Critical Role or live Let's Play Twitch streams. It sucks.

So, I guess that's my trigger, tho if it's because of what I think it's because of, it's really fucking stupid and I'm annoyed something so forgettable apparently traumatized me. :/

 

Actually, thinking about it, if we include stuff that instantly makes you feel sick & want to cry (or start crying) I'd add depictions of elderly people lost, bewildered, and scared, or people being mean to them/leaving them alone and forgotten. Elderly people crying & upset.

The sound of nails being clipped makes me want to scream, I have to ask ppl around me doing it to warn me so I can plug my ears.

 

....elderly people in close proximity to me make me uncomfortable. also nursing homes. terrible horribad places.

 

people i don't know touching my back.
people i do know touching my back without permission.
people touching me whose presence i am not aware of.

i really do not like being touched those ways. i becond extremely fighty and agitated or completely shutdown

 

Food that Might Have Gone Bad, whether it's past its expiration date, or within its expiration date and I just got into my head that it might have gone bad, or it has spots on it of any kind (including the normal kind) or I cooked it and forgot about it in the fridge for 4 days. I tend to get really, really avoidant of it, to the point where I get in my head that this food is "rotting" and leave it untouched in my fridge for 2 months, by which point it's actually rotting. It's really upsetting to me and usually I have my cleaning lady deal with it. The unfortunate result of this is that I end up throwi g out a lot of what I imagine might be perfectly edible food (but like HELL I'm eating it to test it out!)

 

Situations where I can't be certain of getting edible food, especially in public, and situations where I can't be certain I'll be able to get to a bathroom. I'm fairly certain the latter was caused by bladder infections as a kid, I went through a phase where I needed to go to the bathroom literally every five minutes, and that anxiety has never really gone.

 

The "laughy sapphy" line at the end of Keystone Motel.

 

Teeth.

People talking with food in their mouths.

 

okay this ONE FUCKING SMELL
it's
how do I describe it
it's sweet and cloying but it smells like death and rancid things. that's the best way I can put it.

 

Rotten meat? That's all I know that smells both sweet and horrible.

 

I honestly can't say--I've never smelled rotten meat. I have never actually been able to pinpoint WHAT this smell came from. it only existed in my life for like a week, but if I so much as remember it, I can immediately smell it again--but I don't know what caused it. it might be similar to the smell of rotten meat, but I know it couldn't have been that, because my family never even has meat long enough for it to go bad, and this was a smell in my house.

 

showers and the state of needing a shower
the actually things themselves to some degree, but especially discussion of such pertaining to me

 

Sleep hygiene. Practically any medical discussion of my insomnia that isn't medication related at this point.

The space between my fingers being sticky.

Indigo children.

 

Men who know where I live expressing that they want anything from me (including innocuous stuff such as wanting to drop by to give me a thing, or wanting my phone number, or anything).

Men with long dark hair and beards. I inevitably startle and have to stare a bit to reassure myself that no, it's not him, it's just another guy. This is particularly unfortunate because I usually also think they are attractive, I just get irrationally scared of them regardless -_-

 

a certain tone of writing, particularly in fanfic

this also happens to include my own writings in many cases ):

 

@chaoticArbiter are you sure it wasn't like, a dead bird in the wall or something? We've found birds in the drainpipes and rats getting inside, so it seems plausible that a mouse, rat, or bird could've died in your wall or something and rotted there.

 

´Hospital enviroments and therapy screenings/talk anything to do with therapy.

 

Another one: glorification of motherhood on any level, esp of the "oh, mothers always love and support their children" variety (for example one time I told a person that my mom complimented my art and she said "oh but moms are like that, they always think their children's stuff is great" and I was like holy shit at least one of us has to be a goddamn alien). Creepy ones that act as though having a baby is an AFAB person's Destiny and they are Bound To Love and Cherish Their Baby, that is, ones that encourage everyone to become a parent because being a parent is so cute, also upset me a lot.

 

unfortunately, given where I live, that's a common occurrence--dead birds and mice and sometimes bats in my house is a thing that's usual. I know what those smell like; this is not that.

 

oh god but all of this though