Things that are currently annoying you

I am currently really annoyed by the fact that all drivers in this stupid town seem to want their engines (car/motorcycle/scooter) to make the most noise possible. Seriously people?!?!?!

 

Holy shit, I am SO PISSED. The lady at the fabric store in FUCKING OREGON didn't sell me anywhere NEAR as much fabric as I ended up needing. I should've said I meant three SQUARE yards, but how the fuck was I supposed to know that wasn't what (x) yards MEANT??

Fuck everything.

 

afflicted with ennui.

 

I had a tumblr post become bizarrely popular in my fandom, and now I can't find any reblogs from my friends and mutuals, it's just dozens upon dozens of reblogs of this one post, without even any funny tags to read.

Also, I feel a little bit like I'm complaining my life is too awesome, with complaining about this. But still, it makes me wish there was a way I could turn on and off notifications about specific posts.

 

what is sleep

 

My teacher is a jackass and I hate him, and I can't tell if I'm just being petty or if my grievances are legitimate, but either way I need to get the hell over it.

Fuck, all he did was talk very pointedly about how "there are no excuses" for "some people" taking two days to bevel their pipe, but fuck him, I've taken two days to bevel every single time he's given us this assignment, and some fucking how I've managed to get it done on time. It's almost like I know what the fuck I'm doing?!??! For fuck's sake, he's always like this! "People learn at different paces!!" "I don't see how anyone couldn't be doing great if they'd been working hard and putting effort into it, really the only people doing bad are the ones who never show up, uhuh" "Take the first two days for beveling, and the other two are for welding!!" Fucking fuck him, he's such a goddamn liar. And he doesn't mean to be, obviously he's got memory problems, but fuck him for trying to talk himself uo like he's fuckin infallible when he keeps going back on his word and pretending the rest of us are just stupid and lazy. I'm doing good in his class and I still fucking hate him.
I mean, he's a nice guy, he just fucking sucks as a teacher, and he seems to think all the complaints he gets are just proof of him being "tough" and "preparing us for the real world", but the real world doesn't waste my goddamned time with two weeks of book work and a 150 question test that he didn't even write for a class that only lasts six weeks.

 

grumble grumble i want to help people. but we are tight on cash right now because we are not the best stewards of our money. and so it is my own fault that i cannot send more far-away people money to help them because i have spent too much on people and on myself. grumble.

 

Mosquitos. Need I say more?

 

people wrapping lead ropes around their hands and arms when walking horses and cows after i've expressly told them not to because if the animal takes off they'll get dragged along with it

 

CBT and Western therapy and psychiatry is not "modern Buddhism". Modern Buddhism are the various schools of Buddhism that currently exist. Modern Buddhism does not need to have key parts of its cosmology and Buddhology removed because people think that they are not in line with our scientific and rational culture of secularism.

I just want people to stop making this claim and I want them to stop implicitly insulting Buddhists.

 

I've fucked up and hurt my fingers doing this with a DOG LEASH when my dog see's a squirrel or something and tries to murder it and my dog is only about 20 pounds (she is a very athletic little dog but still) I can only imagine how badly you can fuck up and hurt yourself when the animal bolting is like... several thousand pounds...

 

your arm'll get yanked out of the socket and the scary thudding and yelling sounds you make will only scare the animal and make them run faster and longer, the animals i work w/ are p steady by necessity cuz they need to be able to tolerate children and their fuckups but that's no reason to be stupid about it

 

Spoiler: negativity

I'm such an idiot, why do I keep saying words, I just need to shut up forever.

 

where's that lying cat pic when you need it

 

It is so humid.

Feh.

 

When you think you're having a nice chill evening with minimal unnecessary yakking on, and then your partner turns round and accuses you of not caring because you haven't been constantly spewing superfluous words from your face hole. It's been nearly nine years I am not getting any more neurotypical

 

Feelings. Right now I am mainly annoyed by feelings. My own mostly.

 

someone put a 200+lb man on a 29 yr old mare when i wasn't around 2 intervene
horses can carry up to 20% of their bodyweight, yeah, but you need to factor in weight of saddle and age; i barely ever let her carry over 180 because i do not want to break the fucking horse, don't you break my fucking horses

(sorry, ppl at work are just. dumb and i work w/ horses mostly so most of my complaints r in this vein)

 

(Totally understandable! I'm kinda traumatized re: horses but my first moirail was an equestrian.)

I have been hungry and tired and shaky and cold (It's coastal desert in CALI why the fuck am I cold) and brainfogged all day. :/ Hope I'm not sick.