I'm deleting a sarcastic comment about a time machine, but I don't have a good answer. For whatever reason, I guess I'm your new designated Villain, and I can absolutely quote your trail of factual, provable lies about me. I do not trust you to discuss me or mod actions as a whole in any kind of honest way, and you sure keep talking to and about me. I'm not obligated to sit here and take it while you lie. If the lies stop, it's amazing how sharply my participation will drop, but you've already done an impressive amount of damage.
Well, as annoying as this is, it's working. (I'm a little triggered because I got yelled at for trying the same thing once, but let's just roll on.) What do you expect me to do when I keep getting ignored with "let's make sure we're on the same page." The only response that I got to a response that might show I'm not serophobic is some damn mod giving me a hard time. (I know Beldaran saw it because of their icon, and I'm talking with Beldaran right now, just role with the complicated mental schism please.) I'm just asking hey does x+y+z really equal -0? (reloads page) Could someone translate those instructions? I can't understand a word of them.
Don't think it's useful to diagnose people in these kinds of loaded threads (re: the claims of narcissism, unless I'm misreading the intent/wording of that). That's all I got to say, because this is way complicated.
I shouldn't be able to quote posts from the past like this. If you were internalizing what people are saying then we would be much closer to being on the same page. Instead you're asking the same questions and making the same arguments over and over again.
@mystery nonny Guess I read it wrong! The way people were quoting stuff as 'being a narcissist' may have gotten me mixed up there. Spoiler Actually maybe I'm just confused by the general terminology of how narcissist is used in general re: implications in this thread. Thanks for clearing it a bit.
Okay, how do I internalize that I'm serophobic? How do I internalize that back in the 90's I hated https://goo.gl/images/qaJLpp, and https://goo.gl/images/h899jW, in addition to https://goo.gl/images/h899jW (Actually, that's supposed to be any gay guy, but at the time I didn't know that Freddy Mercury was gay or HIV positive. ((Actually he died just before I heard of him and started making tapes off of the library's LP collection.))) I mean, for the most part, I just hated Pricilla... who not only did me wrong, but he was constantly seducing guys that just weren't into him, trying to break some sort of sex record at 17, and then trying to steal their condoms mid-coitus. If I expressed a desire for an elephant-torturer to get mauled by one of his victims, I wouldn't be called elephant-phobic would I? Someone would have gotten straight to the point about not wishing ironic death on people instead of letting time pass with elephobic rumors flying around. Now this is my image of an HIV+ person. https://goo.gl/images/zHc7Er How do I internalize that I have a hatred towards them when I barely think of them?
So how do internalize that everything you're saying about me is true? How do I internalize that I hate African babies and then work through that hatred?
@Athol Magarac I mean, just try listening to people better and learning about the best way to handle issues. People are just asking you to listen when you say something harmful. A person shouldn't have to be a child for you to feel sympathetic to them being HIV+. The wording of your post is confusing. I can't tell if you are disgusted by Freddie Mercury and people who are HIV+ currently or not.
i'm a little confused as to where the talk of african children came from tbh, is it just me or is that completely out of left field
There was a post wiggled for other reasons that included 'most people with HIV these days are African children'. She linked to it earlier, but... it's in the wiggler. Serophobia >> 'i guess i need help not hating african children!!!!' was the chain of events.
Nobody said anything about african babies except you you're doing the exact thing I told you about before I left for my appointment. "How do I internalize that I hate African babies and then work through that hatred?" How this reads to me: "Fine, clearly you think I hate CHILDREN because I ONLY WANTED someone to DIE HORRIBLY OF AIDS, if that's what you want, FINE, I'll do that, and then I'll ask for help with that and you'll probably tell me THAT'S WRONG TOO why can't you MAKE UP YOUR MIND."