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Is this desire linked to your feelings of not counting as a person and feeling uncomfortable when your personhood is addressed as you explained to me in the dm?

And do you mean you don't want to be spoken too at all, or spoken around? As in, we still respond to the things you are saying, but like we're talking about you rather than too you?

 

That doesn't happen often enough, and not about the right things. I think it was just today that I had an infuriating interaction with someone who I think denied being a mind-reader a bunch of dishwasher-loads ago.

 

Hey, whatever you were feeling just then... very non-triggery. Like, I actually untensed to the point where I believed that maybe we can have a civil conversation...

The next slip where I read your post as really aggressive is going to be very bad. Could Spock stay out of this thread for 24 hours and then the next weekend? I would have liked to say until 10:pm New York tomorrow and then not during the weekend, but tomorrow is Friday. I'd like for Snitch to be under the same rule, but it's not as important.

Use a mediary/translator, please, if you really need to say something. Alyssa, Kathy, Pal, they're really good at phrasing things that don't trigger me. There are other people that I haven't noticed, and please take that as a minor compliment. I'll even put up with seebs saying it because I forgot why I was once annoyed with seebs. Or seebs' roomy-person that I talked with on discord but didn't bother to learn anything about except that they're nice.

 

Totally fine, I got what you meant by it, and it's something she's certainly expressed before in the thread. And I think the last time I was mentioned was like, five pages ago, and while I know some concern was raised on it, it was actually within what I viewed as fair guidelines (hence me not piping up plus I was at work) because she's totally fine in referencing the fight. Her saying she was burning emotional resources in her fight with me is cool, because that's not putting her spin on a documented and receipted story. That's her saying how she felt about it, which... I can't dispute. Fights drain spoons, burn matches, etc.

Back on topic, and WRT Seebs' post, it was actually the bit just after what you had quoted that caught my eye as relating to me (The 'apologize for things that never even happened and were never said'), but I do still appreciate the caution that we should be mindful to not do more harm than good in stating our assessments of the situation. Definitely something that I know I have issues with at times.

 

this is from a few pages ago, and I know @Athol Magarac won't actually pay attention to this, but I'm going to try anyways

it's been suggested many, many times across several threads that you find a therapist.

therapy will help you, but only if you do your part and actually be willing to change

unfortunately you're not going to find a therapist who can help you while you're still drunk, so please get sober

 

Not linked to my not wanting to be a person... not directly.

Just, I noticed feelings when people step in and talk to someone else about me, and my feelings isn't bad. It might be because at that point someone's actually saying things that are close to what's on my mind, so we'll see what happens if I could be indulged in my declaration of desire "demand" and negative things are said in that way.

That sort of thing where you hear people talking about you happens all the time to children, and children are people. Right?

 

Hopefully this is the right vid... It's also available in print. "Sequences" from "The Night Bear Ate Goomba."

 

@Athol Magarac if you feel like you're being punished, then maybe step back and ask yourself "do I feel this way for no reason, or is it because people are refusing to let me push my version of what I want other people to think?"

Which I doubt will happen, but, hey, pretty much feels the same as talking to a brick wall anyways.

 

Athol, are you for fucking real? Demanding Spock stay out of things while you shit talk about her? Absolutely unreasonable. If you pull this fuckery in real life, I almost want to know how people handle it, and I'm beginning to feel real sorry for them.

You're acting like an extremely entitled toddler, Athol.

 

After seeing the wiggled content in spock's thread I am 100% categorically going to refuse to engage with you anymore Athol unless you immediately apologize for what you did and can make it clear to me without using manipulative language that you understand what you did wrong and regret it and will not do it again. Full stop, line drawn hard in the sand, I am not tolerating that.

I would also like to know if things of that nature are the sort of things being regularly wiggled out because that strongly effects whether I am willing to keep engaging at all.

 

Um... ?

 

I cannot go into that TCHGB thread. I get overwhelmed. So I cannot see what you are talking about unless you would be so kind as to show me the smallest chunk that's useful.

 

Yes, I can.

Spoiler: tw: gore, suicide, sexual violence, wiggled text

You said this. This is absolutely unacceptable. Absolutely unacceptable.