bandit king of lunch and string

when i'm on prednisone, a yogurt is not enough of a bedtime meds snack. i woke up after an hour with a beast in my belly, and ended up making chili rice AND a turkey sammich. now i have onion breath that could take out a platoon. it's glorious.

unfortunately, i got to reading a captain america fic while i ate, and it's REALLY REALLY GOOD and i don't want to stop reading, but it's super long. but actual competent military tactics! and historical accuracy! and badass peggy! if i go back to bed now, i might just lie awake thinking about this fic. or about my own.

note to self: scene where one of the more badguy-themed types suggests a battle plan that's unnecessarily cruel, and casimir countermands it with a more streamlined plan. the underling is like "but my lord, don't you want to make them regret crossing you?" casimir looks at him like he just farted and says "i don't care how they feel about it."

i kind of think casimir is the kind of antagonist who gives heroes points for effort and really appreciates it when they do something clever. not that he'd ever give up an inch of advantage, let alone 'make it a fair fight'. but if they're competent enough to recognize that and make a dent anyhow, he respects that.

of course, being too competent is why gareth gets his assassination-in-the-bath scene. if gareth wasn't the kind of blithe paranoid who wears mage armor in the bath, it'd be a real short book.

'stalemate' is not an exciting title. i should rename it 'foe yay'.

 

ugh, it's SO HARD to find scientific, straightforward information on dietary things online. nearly every resource seems to be biased toward weight loss and yet feels obligated to remind you that weight loss should be your goal, like... you come there already in the mood to get skinny and then get told as if you didn't, somehow? i dunno, it's depressing. also every calcium calculator has a list of specific foodstuffs, and they're all weird and patchy. like... why does yogurt with fruit always have a separate entry from yogurt without fruit, and half the time sweetened and unsweetened yogurt are different entries, but then some calculators have a long list of different types of nuts and some have no nuts, the only dark green veg is kale spinach and broccoli -- i eat a fuck ton of cucumber and green onion, do those count, do they not, i don't know -- and on the whole it's just a big damn mess.

i just want to make sure prednisone isn't giving me osteoparosis, ok? it doesn't need to be weird.

anyhow, calcium intake issues aside, i love the stuff. i feel so good. i mean, i'm still in pain, and i'm still tired. but it's regular human scale achey pain, not soul deep demon in the pit pain. and i'm tired like i'm overweight and my spine's fucked up, not like i somehow ran a marathon and fought sixteen ninjas between here and the bathroom every time i get out of bed.

my Don't Wanna problem has cleared up.

which is to say, for the past half a year or so, i've had this issue where every time i contemplate doing anything that involves moving at all really, and i mean anything, including playing with cats or loving on seebs or other things that are very enjoyable, i'd get this gut reaction of "oh god, don't make me, it's too hard." and it'd exhaust me. just watering my plants made me feel like i was going to fall down and die. but when i'm on the prednisone, i find myself just... picking up the watering can... and watering the plants. just doing the thing. like a human person! i see cute kitty, i pet cute kitty! i don't have to emotionally brace myself for the price tag of bending and reaching. i don't feel joules of energy being bled out of me like i nicked a vein. i feel like a living person, rather than a bizarre construct animated by dark magic and spite.

i'm still not sure that will translate to me actually working out in the pool today. but the idea does not seem so far out of reach.

 

eh, that page doesn't have anywhere near the detail level i'm looking for. green onion = spring onion = scallion. i do a lot of chinese and japanese cooking.

were you on it for months at a go, or doing pulsed tapers? my doc is very reluctant to give me too much, so we did a 9 day pulse on and three weeks off, and since i was still getting the benefit at the end of the three weeks, after this taper we're going to go two months off and see how long it lasts. then we'll start scheduling the 9 day regimen for just before the previous one wears off, so i'm not taking any more than strictly necessary.

i did tell him i've got a lot of dairy in my diet, i do a vitamin shake most mornings (2 cups of vitamin D enriched 2% milk) and yogurt is one of my go-to snacks, plus cheese and eggs galore. he said it couldn't hurt to add a supplement anyhow, but that's kind of a play-it-safe answer and we didn't go into detail. basically i'm trying not to stress my heart by spiking my calcium levels if i don't need to. so if adding another cup of milk each day would fix it, i want to know that. it's starting to sound like tofu is a really good option, and i love it, i just don't usually have the spoons to cook it.

 

you're a pearl without price, thank you.

 

modded minecraft fun fact: the climbing gloves from 'cyclic' are good good fun, especially in a twilight forest hollow hill. in related news, me and my tanzanite pickaxe are like living legends.

 

we went to the courthouse in faribault and told a judge that yes, we do indeed want to adopt nick, and now it's all official! nicholas has joined the party!

I'M A DAD!!!

 

thanks 4 congrats, all. group hug!

 

innocent breakfast talk

 

ugh. terrible terrible dream. huge crowd of people invaded my house and wouldn't leave. they were having some kind of impromptu bad rp-er convention or something. it started with one chick who for some reason fixated on wanting me to rp a romance with her self insert character in a setting she completely controlled, and when i wouldn't, and tried to get her to leave, she started inviting people or something? and pretty soon there were dozens of the world's most annoying people, all treating my house like a convention center, and i could not make them go away. they just ignored me. when i tried to shout, my voice went hoarse. when i tried to push them out the door, i became weak. when i tried to call the cops, i couldn't find my phone.

kind of comical in retrospect, but it was really upsetting and i'm still kinda shaken.