bandit king of lunch and string

i'm not sure what you mean by 'unsuspecting' -- he wasn't luring in creepos, just regular guys looking for regular dates?

 

FLER!!!!

 

this question came up a little while back:

 

outside: blizzard.
inside:



forcing bulbs was a good decision.

 

so many people: i feel terrible so i'm going to make bad decisions now
me: AAAAAAAAA FLYING TACKLE HUG PLEASE STOP MAKING THINGS WORSE
so many people: no

 

well now i need to get my toad a scaly buddy, dangit

 

SAME HAT!

 

thing i miss about tumblr: just randomly doing part of some writing challenge or other, having a few people riff on it, and then letting it all drift away.

if i got a dreamwidth or whatever to do these, joined the various communities, they'd be specific to one fandom and/or prompt type (kink bingo, etc), and there'd be more of a feeling of Leaving Things Unfinished when i inevitably leave things unfinished. the thing i liked best about tumblr was its short attention span. no one actually gave a damn that i only did like 4 of the 30 AU challenge. it was just four amusing snippets that occurred and then flowed downstream and vanished.

which reminds me, i should probably copy those off my tumblr. i'm not deleting, because i don't want a pornbot to take my name, but i don't trust the site not to auto-delete me because i tripped some bot's badly calibrated criteria, or the whole site not to just delete itself in a fit of madness.

 

i keep meaning to start doing chair yoga but the thing is it seems really... boring... how do you even handle the passage of time while doing yoga? honestly my big problem with PT and workouts now that i'm disabled is i can't do the kind of workouts that are hard enough to be fun, so it's just boring boring boring.

i used to do karate and taekwondo katas, i used to use weight machines, i used to do all kinds of things where my whole body was working hard and there was a lot to engage my brain with. even with repetitive things like treadmills and bikes, i could go long enough that it was worth putting my headphones on. now it's mainly just 'hold this and count' and 'do this thing x number of times, it's not actually difficult except for the fact that it hurts a lot' and i'm honestly just so fucking bored. i have like 5 minutes of stamina before the pain gets too much, so there's no point putting on a podcast or anything. i'm just like. counting to ten a couple times, then counting to thirty a couple times, then taking a break that might turn into just quitting if i'm feeling too stove up.

i know there's no point telling doctors that part of my problem with losing weight and gaining stamina is boredom. neurotypicals experience boredom very differently from autistics and adhd folks. my brain is actually really boredom-resistant, in that i get super interested in things very easily, and have a lot of thoughts to think, and can entertain myself in a void for hours. but that distracts me to a random degree for a random period of time, and i don't have any control over it. so i can either be entertained by my thoughts, or i can do the right exercises the right number of times while struggling mightily and exhausting all my willpower maintaining my focus.

i guess i can sympathize with bpd folks who find boredom to be the most unbearable sensation. i don't feel the same about it, but i have this different problem with it, so i understand how it is when boredom makes your brain just up and do shit without consulting you. in my case it's not making bad life decisions and starting drama, it's just getting completely absorbed by watching a bug or studying how the carpet was woven or planning some dialogue.

probably not nearly as hard to deal with. but it sure makes easy-but-painful workouts a fucking chore.

 

believe me, if i find a solution i won't be able to shut up about it for a week. :P