The Grouch's Trash Pile [Baldur's Gate 3]

I sorted the video card driver situation out that evening, but it was a headache. The SSD drives continue to chill where I stashed them. The computer seems to be working fine - the fan on the side (!) of the case sounds a touch rattly, but it's not too bad. It's clearly a huge improvement over my poor, dead machine - I could put all the settings at max for DAI and FFXIV if I really wanted to, while having a browser full of tabs, Steam, and Discord open at the same time. I turn a few things down so I don't get any slowdown (and some things don't really make enough difference to bother having them up high) and it still looks much nicer. Not that it looked bad before, but there's definite improvement - and they run better in general.

I just hope this thing lasts some years before I need to start replacing parts... it's always iffy with a used machine.

 

Bah, the shorts are the wrong size. I worried that XL would be too big, but I measured myself a few times and took into account that the shorts are supposed to have a close fit and that looked like the appropriate size, and... they're big enough I can take them on and off without unbuttoning them first. ???

I e-mailed their customer support to see if I can just go to their physical store to exchange them (it's close enough to the rehabilitation center I could go there after workshop) or if I have to return them via post since I ordered them online. If I have to mail them back that is at least free and very easy, I don't even have to talk to anyone, but meh.

 

And then had to email them back that nevermind, I found the relevant info on their site, sorry for bothering them >_>;;; I SWEAR I didn't see it when I looked, but that's what happens with tiny text and tired eyes, I guess.

 

Me: I want to look cool! My style is redneck punk!

*ends up dressing like someone's gay dad*

Sigh. I'd rather wear my casual button up shirts untucked, but they're too long to look anything but sloppy unless I'm just wearing them as overshirts. Having a short torso does NOT help.

it's specifically 'gay dad' because had a friend in high school whose gay dads always wore hawaiian shirts. i think they'd have enjoyed those shirts.

 

I like those shirts. But aesthetic is hard.

 

I mean, I LOVE them - the purple plaid was a super lucky thrift store find, the tacky blue fake Hawaiian one of the few bits of Real Color to grace menswear sections last summer - but the look is definitely not 'Cool Dude'. XD; If I had the wherewithall (and trusted my sewing skills enough) I'd alter them, but... *flops*

Effort.

 

Love not being able to sleep when I have to get up extra early because J has been snoring up a storm for the last two hours

(Can’t wear earplugs and there’s nowhere else to sleep. I’m fucked, basically)

 

I’m... somewhat alive this morning. I seriously considered calling in and going back home to sleep after my injection appointment, but here I am with a latte and a minor case of the shakes instead.

Gave myself permission to bail out on workshop early if I can’t handle it, which helps. Gotta get there first, though, and that’s a... while. x_x

 

I’m being subjected to a song that couldn’t be more obviously written by straight cis guys because the lyrics are basically “I’m a straight guy who likes sex with women! Sexy sex!!!” and it’s trying to be funny but like. I find the concept of cringe culture odious but goddamn if thus song isn’t making me cringe right down to my lizardbrain.

 

Fortunately I could volunteer some better songs, one of which being VNV Nation’s “When is the future?”, which got toes tapping and a comment about it being good music. :)

I feel damn near mummified, I’m so tired, but I successfully got the shorts exchanged (the guys working there are rly great to interact with) and am on the long trip home. It’s a bit cool and rainy, which is making my current state a bit more tolerable.

 

I told Aud I feel like I've been awake since Ancient Egypt and I think that's a lot more evocative way of putting it. Hoo boy.

"But Mercury why aren't you asleep right now" well imaginary interlocutor, it's because my entire soul rebels at the idea of being in bed before 10 pm if I'm not direly ill, much less being in bed at 6, which it was by the time I got home, put stuff away, and ate dinner!

Man though I've been really boring in here. I know it's my thread and I can be as boring as I want but I'm putting myself to sleep, and not because I'm exhausted. :V Needs more screencaps. Art. Story stuff!!

 

Putting a reminder here to myself to ask my advisor-type person at workshop if I should be planning a project to do in my last 6 months at workshop and if making a Twine game would be a viable/reasonable/useful option

 

HEY



I HAVE CLEARED BALDESION ARSENAL AND ACQUIRED A MALEVOLENT MURDER ORB OF MY VERY OWN

 

Spoiler: note to self, nothing interesting

I already thought of this like a week or two ago, promptly forgot it, and have been stressing about Morgan's name until I just now remembered it again: consider renaming Morgan after your character for J's Uncharted Worlds game that never went anywhere.

 

ALSO

Design Snufkin glam for Laughing Fawn

 

Oh no Nier Automata is on sale

Resolve... slipping... Oh noooo...!

 

So uh, this is upsetting

A mass shooting threat was posted on a Finnish-language darknet image board yesterday evening, threatening to shoot up an "Espoo shopping center" this Friday. There's a number of shopping centers in Espoo, and one of them - which is one of the largest - is one I have to go through to get to the Metro so I can go to workshop. Since it's a transit hub, I have to go through there to get anywhere if I'm not walking.

So!! I'm not feeling great!!

 

can you call/email the workshop place to mention this? I mean frankly a mass shooting threat seems like an uh reasonable reason to not go to a workshop until things are worked out.
God I'm so sorry :c

 

I'm sure they would have been understanding had I called in, but I went in anyway (even though my sleep was trashed by anxiety dreams in the form of... really stupid horror movie-ish stuff. Half the reason I kept waking up was my brain going "wtf, no" and trying to roll up something better).

Good news, though: the police posted an update on their twitter this morning that after evaluating the threat (which was in fact specifically to the shopping center near me D:) they recommended that people go about business as usual on Friday, and this afternoon that they've taken a suspect into custody. Finnish police take threats made online very seriously, and according to J are competent and trustworthy (which was one heck of a hard thing for me to wrap my mind around, coming from the US...).

Anyway, I feel considerably less like I'm in a constant state of low-key panic now, unlike last night. That sucked. I'll still be on my guard going out tomorrow, but.

 

good luck and stay safe!!!
it's good to know the police are taking things seriously it's v nice when institutions function as intended.