yay! pain has retreated from 'agnonizing' to merely 'pretty fuckin sore'. i can live with pretty fuckin sore. also seebs made me cookies. <3
nnnnnnOPE nevermind the bollox heres the whole nerve pain circus back again! what do you reckon my chances of getting real pain meds? cuz the muscle relaxer is doing fuck all. ok so fun fact about me, when i’m tired my brain makes me hear music. not the usual earworm thoughts but actually turns white noise and environmental sound into new compositions. which would be much cooler if it didn’t mostly sound like a high school band practicing a royalty free knockoff of party rock anthem. tonight im getting a new orleans jazz funeral though, which is kinda great.
went to the ER and they gave me a shot and some oxy and i’m kind of high but i don’t even mind bc thank god it stopped hurting appt tomorrow with yet another doc to get some pain meds that will get me through to whatever actual treatment eventually happens. haven’t even gotten a call back re the MRI. why is medical bureaucracy so shitty. why. anyway im on a heating pad and hermes is on me and we’re ok.
why is headache and puking a part of this now? poor seebs was too literal about “i need a bucket” and would’ve been cleaning vitamin shake out of the bedroom carpet if barb hadn’t been quick with a recycling bin. anyway, appointment in minutes to convince a doctor i need pain meds until the nerve pinch is fixed. yes even after the mri, the metal donut doesn’t fix it, it only takes a picture of it. fortunately, cat.
I keep almost asking if you want a bear mug, then getting distracted, so I’m asking now: Do you want a bear mug? I can give you a bear mug. It can go in the mail if you’re not up to in-person.
i would love a bear mug, you’re a sweetheart. and yeah i’m not social. my meat suit is a festering hell pit.
done ❤️ good news finally! doc gave me gabapentin and extended my oxycodone to two weeks. the gabapentin worked a miracle. i now have NO PAIN AT ALL when lying on my back, only a dull ache lying on my side, and the nerve stabbies whenstanding or sitting upright are only the pins and needles of asleep limb waking up. i’d have updated y’all sooner but i slept all day. ah sweet relief! tomorrow: date with the metal donut.
i got them to put me in feet first, which helped a lot. my main problem was holding still when my leg was hurting. i got through it, though! all i have to do til next thursday is rest up.
I must immediately show this to my friend who is Danish and told me about the hats. Though she has never to my knowledge ruined any new teflon.
@vegacoyote got the bear mug! it beautiful! nice texture too, v smooth and glossy. i like! many thanks! am drinking juice from bear. good experience. hydrocodone makes me less drugged than oxycodone, i can read! and not go crosseyed! quality of life improvement. also the sore throat that turned up after my dental surgery... that’s from the TURBO SNORES i achieve on oxy, it turns out. switching to hydro cures it. biology is a little bit stupid sometimes. more good: i told seebs how to make Steak And Potato Thing, and they did it perfectly the first time. so delish. and there was ice cream. that’s my life until dr choi performs her miracles. sleeping, reading, eating, and trying to stay hydrated. it could be worse. i know from experience how worse it could be. so i’m basically content.
Bears for you: Mr. Neil Gaiman has been having them show up at his writing cabin. https://www.instagram.com/p/Bys-s5pHpuX/ https://www.instagram.com/p/By0y_BOH3WD/ https://www.instagram.com/p/By0y5PmHjLT/
got up at bluhhhh o’clock and dragged my carcass to see dr choi. she was less hurry pants this time, though i did have to ask her to slow down when she started asking questions without pausing for me to answer. new theory: she’s not callous, she’s just a nerd, and she gets excited. so we went over the MRI, and she showed me the SECOND CYST that appeared since the previous image set. nerville ouchbottom has a little cyster. haha i’m so clever. anyway. there’s also fat deposits in my spine, which is caused by cortisone, but she still wants to give me another cortisone shot to get the inflammation down before trying to drain the cysts. i’m not entirely clear on why i have to go see a surgeon in eagan but apparently i do? which is an hour drive, so that’s going to be fun. and of course he, too, is only available at absurd levels of early. and it might be three weeks before he can see me. thank goodness for hydrocodone, but also very not pleased about being on it that long.