Fire Emblem!

...On the support page, if I select the Edelgard+Byleth option I get a message along the lines of 'it will take some time before you can deepen this bond.' Which probably means that I already have the C support, I've just got to wait for the story to get to that point.

 

Yep!

 

...Goddamnit, Jeritza, I just finished my Crimson Flower run, you utter jackass.

Spoiler: Jeritza's supports (no details, just who they're with)

Given the Death Knight's connections to the Flame Emperor and everything else that happens, I'm kinda surprised that there aren't Supports with Edelgard or any of the professors, just Byleth and Mercedes. I guess that's easier, but it's still something of a surprise to me. On the other hand, Bi Jeritza! Huzzah for a second bi dude! Also, he and Mercy are both bi, and that feels nice, somehow.

 

Spoiler: jeritza

why is the only other bi option for dudes locked to my wife's house

this feels like some sort of personal slight against me in specific

WOE IS ME I WISH TO ROMANCE HIM BUT I AM MARRYING EL AGAIN ON MY RUN THROUGH AS UALLACH. jeritza must wait for whenever in the hell i get around to playing as a dudeleth

 

Spoiler: Edelgard&Byleth C+ Support

So, that lends a whole lot of scary insight to the dynamic between Edelgard and Ferdinand. It adds a dark undertone to what appears to, on the surface be, 'please stop being so competitive, dude'.

What's worse is presumably Ferdinand doesn't know. He had no idea that "I will be the best Prime Minister ever!" is not something that sounds like it will be in Edelgard's best interests.

edit because spoiler was broken and I didn't notice.

 

this is part of the fun of three houses :D

 

Spoiler: Edelgard route spoilers

So I saw this post on tumblr and thought about myself and my own bullshit and then I thought about like. Edelgard's tea time quote. Where she says that this was fun. Like she hasn't experienced that concept in ages and doesn't really know how to process it. Look at this post and feel sad with me:

one of the most important things i’ve learned in therapy is that when you’ve experienced prolonged trauma in your childhood, pleasure feels uncomfortable. like, not that you don’t feel it, but that when you do feel it there’s an impulse to make it stop, because it’s extremely unfamiliar. and pleasure can mean many things, as simple as feeling cozy, and as complex as feeling loved. the neural pathways for feeling good have not had a chance to develop, and the neural pathways for feeling bad are quite practiced. feeling good, too, takes conscious practice.

 

Spoiler

considering i’m on the path to associating “love” with deception, lies and horrible feelings, i hope this is true.

 

Spoiler

You kind of get used to it over time. I am still getting used to it. But like. There has been marked improvement over like. When I first escaped my family.

 

Spoiler

I actually want it to get worse so I can avoid it entirely. I’m better off without it. But I suppose that’s an issue for another thread.

anyway, sauna update is out. Finally we can go on more dates with our romance interests. Kinda surprised it’s a big group thing though.

 

It kinda makes sense. Sauna, not baths, in retrospect.

 

I mean I would have expected big group thing even if it was baths. Saunas and baths say 'group time' to me.

 

Forgot to mention I finally posted my first fic in nine years (and I never posted that nine years ago one) last week :3 thanks @Helen of Boy for your input!

I've also been having a blast on the FE3H Rarepair Port discord server x3 so much fun/entertaining ideas and discussions there. I may be writing Sylvain/Dedue snippets because no one will take my keyboard away from me

 

Some mistakes I have made:

• Reading an AU fic that now has me kinda shipping Rhedelgard, despite how that absolutely cannot work in canon whatsoever;
• Started replaying the Tellius games because of how many similarities they have with Three Houses, and also because it's been a while and I love 'em;
• Having too many ideas for a fanwork to do, with each being too big an idea to realistically do more than one and actually have a solid chance of finishing any of them:

1. Zelgius, from more-or-less the moment of his death, being sent by Yune and Ashera to check on their friend Sothis and see if she'd woken up, too. Of course, they last heard any word from Fodlan a couple millenia ago, but she should be waking up from her nap soon, right? Not like anything bad could've happened while she was asleep that'd hurt her without letting her wake up enough to at least leave a message for Ashera or something, right? Zelgius probably winds up a teacher at Garreg Mach, possibly allowing Hanneman or Manuela to step down as a House Head (or letting Byleth be a teacher's aide rather than full teacher, their first year).
2. An insert into Byleth, using the OOC knowledge to try and get some help from Indech to maybe help talk Rhea down a bit. Mostly loved the name I'd come up with for this, "Progenitor God Complex".
3. An insert into Byleth, where instead of replacing/merging with them the inserted would be another pseudo-ghost akin to Sothis.
4. Leonie gets empowered by Yune and Ashera in a divine revelation to go check on their friend Sothis, for reasons that have nothing to do with her hair and eyes being close enough to theirs that the change can be largely overlooked.
5. An insert into a new character, basically reincarnation, quite possibly due to Yune and Ashera, because my brain got very stuck on this for a while.
6. A quest where I do one of the above, most likely #5, and allow the fact that there's audience participation help cover for how self-indulgent of an idea this whole thing is.

• Got heavily back into HEMA specifically due to wanting to write good action scenes for one of the above, forgot how out of practice I was, hurt my wrist doing drills.
• Continued to play Three Houses despite needing to probably take a break because I have to finish this Silver Snow run so I can get Rhea's S-Support and round out the few Supports I'm missing, other than Jeritza's, which will come next, and means I'll be running Black Eagles (something) three times in a row, at least.

 

@ Helen of Boy PM me about HEMA sometime, I wanna get started and idk what the fuck I’m doing.

Anyone else surprised Anna doesn’t have any supports (apparently)? She did in Awakening, I’m pretty sure she did in Fates, so why not this time around too?

 

Not terribly surprised given how the supports in this game are written. I could only really imagine them adding a support with the Professor at most for Anna. I'd feel kind of weird about a character who has had fuck all to do with the game interacting with like Dimitri and such. The supports feel too intimate for her to just kind of appear in them. My best guess would be the nature of how the supports are written this time but really I have no idea.

In terms of fanwork...I'm editing the Edeleth s poem. It's going to be a while before I get it finished but the first round of editing work has been done to it. Got a Buddhism AU piece in the works too. Initial draft's not done. It's in the style of like...the suttas though. A style based off that sort of thing. Basically the Professor is a wandering Bodhisatta who goes around discoursing and fixing shit. I'm wanting to do a kind of series for these...At least in regards to her constructing what would be her canonical crew of students, much like how Guanyin has a traditional set of students who follow her. First one being worked on is the poem regarding Edelgard but the basic idea for them all are these and they're going to be put under spoilers...

• 
  
  Spoiler

  [*]The Flame Emperor Discourse (or sutta/sutra) - Byleth is arrested by the guards of the Empire for talk that comes off as her spreading religion, which is a crime punishable by death. She is taken before the Emperor and she has a discussion with the Emperor about the nature of merit, wisdom, and the viability of war as a peace creating tool. Edelgard is called out as being exceedingly proud and not actually having created the world she wanted to create. She is beaten in combat and her life is spared. Byleth is permitted to go free and continue her wandering. Some weeks later Edelgard abdicates the throne and goes in search of Byleth. After finding her she prostrates herself before her and asks to be her student. This is granted and she becomes the first of the Enlightened One's pupils. She is renamed Small Emperor by Byleth. As further proof of her devotion to these new teachings Edelgard gets rid of her axe and takes up a firm vow of absolute non-violence. She will never raise her hand in violence against another living being as long as she lives. Even at the cost of her own life. This is in recompense for the war she started the unified the continent through bloodshed. Edelgard's story is also heavily based off that of Ashoka's, complete with her building large pillars with her edicts on them. Just if Ashoka's conquering was actually looked at negatively and if the Emperor was not as wise as they thought.
  
  [*] The Tempest King Discourse - While wandering through Byleth and Edelgard meet a man who asks them for help. He claims that someone is dying in the woods and he asks them for help with saving this person. Finding this a reasonable request the two follow the man into the woods. However it is revealed that he is the infamous Boar King, a disgraced king who was bested by Edelgard in her rise to power. He attempts to kill them on the spot but fails because Byleth is simply that great. A discourse between her and Dimitri begins, wherein she learns about his tragic anime backstory and his relation to Edelgard is revealed. He proceeds to guilt spiral himself about the fact that he has been murdering and torturing people. Dimitri gets called out on his lack of faith in the Dhamma to reveal all and for it to be in the hearts of all beings. This pulls him out of his funk and he asks to be taught. Byleth tells him to throw down his spear and grants him her khakkhara, which he can use to signal to smaller sentient beings that he is coming. She also declares that he is not so much a boar as he is a tempest. She renames him Tempest King and compares him to the asura who guard temples. Guarding her and their companions is now his job. Dimitri's story is heavily based off the Angulimala Sutta.
  
  [*]The Silver Dragon Discourse - While wandering Byleth and Edelgard run across a dragon. The dragon spies Edelgard and becomes thoroughly enraged. It proceeds to charge the pair down with the intent to kill them. Byleth stops this rampage by raising a single open faced palm in the Abhaya Mudra. The dragon is upset and furious about this and a discourse begins. This one focused around how Edelgard had destroyed her church, killed numerous of her followers, and in general caused much pain. More than that she is very angry that Edelgard banned worship of her dead mother, another dragon named Sothis. Rhea's attachment to her mother leading her to lie and create a false church is thoroughly taken down. Specifically that this attachment has ended up hurting her more than anyone else. When Byleth's rusted sword that she retrieved from Sothis when putting her to rest is revealed Rhea is again enraged but she is calmed when the encounter with Sothis is described. Specifically about how the attachment and the existence of the church had bound her to the world as a hungry ghost, suffering in torment. Rhea feels bad and asks to become a student so that she can better work out her shit and learn to let go as her mother had through Byleth's tutelage. She becomes Silver Snow. Rhea's story is not directly based off any one story save that Guanyin is traditionally accompanied by a dragon princess and that the Buddha once raised his hand to stop a rampaging elephant.
  
  [*]the fuck i dunno we got to do something with claude i'm thinking something based off a monkey story Discourse

 

I am also intending on working on a rebirth fic. Due to being inspired by this piece of art. It'll take place in a Fódlan many, many years in the future which has a modern setting akin to our own world. Two university students have a chance meeting at an airport. The one, a grad student named Blanid, has a brief moment of deja vu which gets her to call a white haired woman at the airport 'El'. Which rather surprises said white haired woman, an undergrad going to study abroad in Elibe, because she's never met this woman before. And Blanid doesn't even know that her name is Eleanor. So what the fuck man. Rebirth shenanigans and chance meetings ensue.

this is not meant to be a long thing

Just three parts with an ending that'll leave things up to the reader whether or not more come of their chance encounters or no.

 

https://www.reddit.com/r/fireemblem/comments/dvmewu/probably_the_worst_mistranslation_of_the_game/

Pleased to hear that this line was a mistranslation, it kinda didn't reflect well on Edelgard as it stood in the translation :P

 

Spoiler: Edelgard spoilers shit

oh hey i found someone else who has ptsd and had the same reaction as i did to edelgard's reaction to jeralt's death: In other words, her advice to Byleth is her trying to be helpful, not callous. I was surprised when I read others saying that they thought Edelgard was being cruel-I would have given similar advice. At this point, it's the only way I know how to function.

I'm not saying she was good at helping. But she was trying. In the one way she knows how.

 

Came from one of captainflash's posts on Edelgard's C-PTSD that was linked in that translation discussion there.

Speaking of here is their most recent post on her. This one specifically focused on her memory issues. It's a very good breakdown of it.