18 year old Australian. Dropped out of high school 1.5 years ago (around the end of year 10) because issues. Want to be in school again - I actually kind of like it. Probable anxiety/possible autism?/maybe trans??? Mostly here to try and figure out the above. Have tried the therapist route with me and stopped very quickly, there's an online option I think might work better - but I want to hash out my thoughts here first if possible? (there's a lot of thoughts/feelings (I've basically been unable to effectively vent about a lot of shit since, like forever) and one of the main things stopping me from getting help so far has just been getting stuck looping through different ones whenever I try and think about writing stuff down (because to write stuff I need to work out feelings, but getting into feelings makes it hard to write (like i'm already feeling good enough that most of what I've written feels weird and not like me))) Lurked on seebs blog a bunch, and here a little. Don't have much of a history online because everything that comes out of my mouth is garbage and as soon as I realize that I kinda just stop posting anywhere (probably gonna regret this as soon as I post tbh)
Welcome to kintsugi! I've found this place to be great for thoughts-hashing. I definitely feel you on the "what I write doesn't feel like me later" front. It's kind of weird how quick the brain weasels hide, huh? Also I'm guessing anxiety doesn't help a whole lot with being able to trust yourself on the "these are real and valid feelings" front. (I guess I should go to work so I'll sign off) have a good day!
