A while ago I posted a thing in General Advice. Someone responded that I probably have depression. I still need some convincing, but basically if that is right, then I'm facing the same problem that I did when I discovered the term "executive dysfunction" thanks to Seebs. And that is "Okay, so if I have this problem... then that means I get excuses to not do stuff!" On the other hand, I do want some things to actually get done, and not being able to do them kind of sucks... but I like not being able to do them because then I get to not do them! So I basically have 2 responses: Either "I'm not doing anything! I need to take more responsibility!" or "Oh okay, this is a brain problem! Meaning it's not my fault, so why should I try to fix it? Somebody should fix it for me!" ...so should I take responsibility for stuff that I "can't" do? Or should I just leave the task to someone else and forget about it? Or is there a third option people usually take when they realize they have a problem that I'm not seeing?
I wish I could offer more advice. This is something I've struggled with for a long time, and I still haven't found a great solution (although with medication, I don't have as much trouble with this because I generally feel sort of okay). But when I get in a depression hole I really have a hard time with this. I usually at least attempt to make myself try to do things, even if I feel like I can't do them. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't. anonymous made a good point while I was writing this; treatment can definitely be another option.
This is going to come across as a bit harsh -- I don't mean it to, I'm just not sure how to soften it up Just because the problem is not your fault does not mean that you don't have to deal with it, or that you shouldn't take responsibility for it. Nobody is going to fix this for you -- they can help you fix it, and seeking help from a professional is definitely an option, but ultimately it's up to you to figure out ways to deal with your brain being a dick to you. Even medication would only make it easier for you to deal with the problem, it won't make the problem go away entirely.
seconding what @oph said. the third option is finding a way to deal w the problem, be it medication or cbt/dbt or something else
Thanks. Umm... so, yeah. No easy answer, I guess. Just treatment and focus and figuring out ways to fight both things at the same time. Well that's a bummer. You know, after my psychiatrist mentioned that there was a large chance that I'd find it easier to do stuff in a few years, when I was 25-ish, I was kinda hoping that that meant "you shouldn't have responsibility over that stuff for the next 4 years, your parents should take care of everything until then" and... yeah. No. ...stupid lazy brain....
