urgh, i want an e-hug. ive told you guys about all the shit with my BA thesis and the shit it is and tomorrow i'm going back to campus to try and talk to my major's coordinator and see what i still have to do/what can be done for me to graduate and im just. im so anxious and tired. im feeling so done with everything... ive been physically sick for like, 4-5 days thinking about this and im not sure i'll be able to sleep. my heart is beating way too fast, i cant breathe, im nauseous and dizzy... all the fun stuff. ive had a couple of spontaneous panic attacks... ugh, i wish i could just give up sometimes. im so tired. whats the use? im not going to be able to do anything i want anyway and... ugh, you know, sometimes i wish i would go to sleep and just simply not wake up like, ever again
