Hi. I recently came to the realization that I'd somehow managed to get through nineteen years without figuring out how to talk to people about the things I like without feeling like I'm wasting everyone's time. So. I'm here to figure out how to people. In theory I like science fiction, writing, anime, comic books, and fanfiction. In practice I mostly find myself erratically flipping through seven open tabs looking for something to do. Working on a couple fanfics, and kicking around original ideas, but haven't gotten anything off the ground yet. I get the feeling that I write with all the subtlety and grace of a dying cow, but I hear that goes away with time and practice. Here's hoping.
Runaways and RWBY, mostly. RWBY was very unexpected, but it's got a pretty enthusiastic fan community, which is always nice to see. Runaways was the first comic book I read and it's very dear to me, but it's not got a lot of active fans. But I read fanfic from all over. Homestuck and Gravity falls are what I've got current tabs open for.
Nothing to be sorry about; you're being totally normal on this board. Man, I haven't read Runaways in ages; I read it when it first came out, but the library only had the first arc and a half or so. Need to pick it back up.
So, social anxiety: Totally an actual thing. And I think you'll do fine, although it may take some practice. I have strong (and negative) feelings about the things people do to kids that result in them feeling like they're wasting people's time by being interested in things. No, see, interested in things is awesome. That is a great thing to be. People should not make you feel like you are wasting their time by being interested in things.
You like gravity falls, I automatically like you. Agreeing that being interested in things is awesome, seriously.
I know it's awesome. I love listening to people being passionate about things. I am just not so good with reciprocating. And I don't think anyone made me this way. I think I probably did it to myself. I've always been bad at reading people, and once I got old enough to start caring about other people's feelings I guess I just assumed the worst whenever I couldn't recognize why they were acting as they were. I don't think I'm especially interesting, and I'm a terrible conversationalist, so it makes sense that people wouldn't want to hang around me. And I was always more interested in reading and watching than actually interacting with people.
Having this as a safe space to practice social is probably one of the best things about it, honestly. Good luck corralling those brains, you'll be fine.
... I'm just gonna go ahead and say I bet you're autistic, because basically that description of being bad at conversing and people probably aren't interested is nigh-universal among social-anxiety autistics with no other obvious source of trauma.
Maybe. You've said before that i sound autistic, so. I guess it's a possibility. I've also had two phycologists suggest Schizoid personality disorder.
