so i've been really inactive until recently and i've been procrastinating on writing an explanation: my mental health has suddenly gone downhill recently and i don't really know why i'm not recovering. i had a serious issue not too long ago where one of my friends triggered some intense paranoia, and now i suddenly feel like i can't trust anyone, and i've been having these really weird unpleasant dreams. i have this constant feeling of being watched now too, especially at my mom's place, but i've never really had this feeling of being watched before so i don't know why i'm startign to have it now. i keep seeing things out of the corner of my eye, too. these issues have also been affecting me at school, and i've been struggling to keep my grades from rapidly falling apart, which has really taken its toll on my time to talk to people. i don't even have the time to join weirdmageddon anymore bc of it, i've been slowly pulling away from everyone i know and i'm starting to get worried because my friends are starting to notice that i'm acting differently than i usually do, even ones who know i have paranoiac streaks. they say i'm looking more haggard recently too. i don't even know what to say to them bc i'm not sure i can trust any of them anymore. i don't really feel like there's anyone i can trust at all anymore. i feel like all of my friends secretly hate me. all i know is that that one thing that happened is the cause of all of this, but i don't know how or why
witnessing. I hope you start to feel better soon. If you ever need to vent and want someone to listen my inbox is always open.
thank you. part of the reason this is so scary is that i'm unfamiliar with whatever brainweird is currently going on, it seems completely new. i've always had bouts of paranoia, but it's usually just a seasonal thing that dies down eventually. it's never been like this. the paranoia isn't dying down completely yet. i've just barely been able to force myself to trust others when i'm particularly paranoid, but i don't know how long it will be until i am no longer able to do so. i'm pretty sure everyone here will notice when it happens: i become increasingly incomprehensible and more word-salady as i become more paranoid.
