I don't have any helpful words except... wow, that sucks. It really does, and you should stop for a moment to just appreciate how strong you are for continuously surviving this suck. Not everyone could be doing it, but you are. And then (take my word for this please, even though right now what I'm saying probably sounds like bullshit) remind yourself that in a month or a year, Future You will be thanking you for giving them a chance to get out of the suck. This is the chance you're giving yourself every day that you keep going. Eventually you WILL reach a point where life doesn't suck anymore. Stay strong for just a bit longer, you can do it.
