Here's how the story goes. I'm a lesbian and only was only just realizing it in high school. I'd had a massive crush on this girl, C, in my freshmen year. It kind of went away after that because she was kind of unstable and didn't care much about other people's boundaries. In my junior year I was mostly over her, and she was going to graduate early anyhow. I stayed after school for an art thing, and this girl, T, was there with her boyfriend. We talked about crushes and I brought up how I had felt for C. She promised she wouldn't tell a soul. At this point, I wasn't really out of the closet. I'd told maybe two people and had trusted T with that. C was pansexual and super friendly, so T probably thought she was doing me a favor telling her without my consent. C asked me out on valentines day, with a custom made oragami card with a sollux bee and the words 'would you bee my valentine?' I turned her down, even though I still liked her and it hurt. I knew that she was likely to push me for things I wasn't ready for, because she had before, and I hadn't ever stopped her or told her no before then. It was still really hard and upsetting to do that. It ruined our friendship and she never spoke to me again. T tried asking me about it and I told her, no, your meddling didn't turn up anything. I was still polite but I was so, so angry at her. I avoided her for the most part until we graduated. She liked one of my posts last week, and I guess I didn't know how angry I still was? And now I've been thinking about it for a week and trying to get a handle on my feelings. Does anyone have advice on how to deal with these feeling things? TLDR: Well, I just realized this girl I knew a couple years ago is still following my tumblr, because she just liked one of my things last week. She's the girl that outed me to my crush in high school. I'm still mad about it and idk how you're supposed to handle those feelings.
There's nothing wrong with being mad. You told her something in confidence, and she broke it. That's not a very friend-like thing to do. I have no idea how to deal with these feelings though. I generally ignore feelings like this to be honest. Perhaps not the healthiest way to deal with feelings, but it's my way :P
Yeah, usually I try and ignore things like this and hope they go away. Most of the time, they kind of do? Like they fade with the more distance between you and it. I just feel like, on the grand scale of bad things done to me, I've let go of and gotten past worse. I just don't get why this sticks out so much, and why I still feel just as angry as I did when she did that, when it's been about 3-4 years. I guess it just really surprised me and now I'm a bit stuck on it. I know that I have a right to be upset and angry but I still feel like I should be over it?
