So, hi everyone! I am Hoarmurath, aka your resident somewhat average person. I have anxiety and some lighter variant of depression, neither are diagnoses but both do make it a bit harder. I am 25, a tailor by trade and generally a nice hobbit dwarf when I have my social force field on. When I don't, then I am a pintsized nuclear asshole, but I try to use my powers for good. My hobbies include being mad at idiots on the internet, LARPing, writing roleplays, being a dipshit and trying to get my life together. I am also good at hating jerks and exes on people's behalf and organising messy rooms. I am the best at that last thing. I am from Estonia (we made skype, that is, some dudes from my country made it) and the reason I am here is because I have a little sister, who is both taller than me and not my biological sister, who ended up here and linked me one day. I might have been lurking around and reading to help with the last phases of my tumblr deprogramming? I ragequit last year after a few years of pretty much living in constant privileged person guilt over my boring (not uwu enough, clearly) white bisexual well-off cisfemale self, but it took some time to realise that hey, minorities can be absolute fuckmuppets too!!! ugh. also the america-centricism of tumblr is stupid and annoying and actually we shouldn't be viewing the entire world through those goggles. I curse a lot and generally tend to employ nuclear level advice because that's what I do best. I can answer questions about my somewhat average averageness if you like! Fan stuff I care about right now: uhhhh do note that i have like various degrees of enthusiasm from million negatives to omg I want to die over this thing omg, so yeah * Marvel somewhat * Homestuck (still reading aaauuuugghhhh omg aaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh) * Person of Interest That's all, nice to meet you! Even though I've been here for a month already, I think.
HELLO FELLOW HAMSTEAK. And yeah us minorities can be awful. So amazingly fucking awful that I just. Don't want to be involved in the transgender community. Certainly not on tumblr that's for sure. Being a DFAB bigendered dude who likes crossdressing and genderswapping I am probably eating baby ducks alive or something to the dicks on tumblr. Which is your favorite homosuck. Mine is Porrim. Or Kanaya. Or Aranea. It changes on like a daily basis but those three are definitely my favorites. Damnable friends have also made me extremely fond of Damara and the Handmaid too. Jerks.
KANAYA. Basically I want to be Kanaya (and the tailor part of is) but tbh I am mostly Karkat. I like Aradia too. Just started act 6 so I haven't met the post-scratch trolls yet, tho. Basically the minorities thing is that it took me way too long to learn that being oppressed doesn't make someone a safe person. So that's that in a nutshell. Also tumblr is hella deluded about real life. Like, behaving like a tumblr person was causing cracks in my real relationships, so I am glad I quit. Much better now!
I am most like Kanaya and Porrim apparently according to friends of mine. I certainly relate to them most. I was the kid that really liked vampires. And who was endlessly upset to learn that blood tastes awful. I just wanted to be a sexy dread fiend of the night. I still do really.
So is that a fanon (MERP originally, I think?) ringwraith name you have? #i know i bugged you about this already #but i want to knoooooooow
You sound interesting ::3 And also a lot like me just that I'm not a professional tailor nor very organized
@Aondeug Me and Silvereye had a deal where she wrote down which trolls I am like the most and which ones I would like the most, and put it in an envelope so we would have evidence she guessed right when I made it far enough. Sure: she guessed I was like Kanaya and Karkat, and that I would like Kanaya, Karkat and Terezi the most. She was correct lolololol! Yes, vampires. :D @Wiwaxia I was in a LotR fangroup and this one asshole came in and organised us into lands, and since I went into Angmar, I had to change my name (which up to that point was a hill in Silmarillion, nerd cred ftw) and picked this out of some fanon list, I guess. Because he had all this badass madeup lore and I liked the name. Still stuck with it 10 years later, oops. @Starcrossedsky uhhh. Cut stuff. Sew stuff. Cry. Pick stuff apart. Sew some more. More seriously, you can hit me up with questions from pattern drafting to the actual sewing itself and I'll try to help! @whimsicalobservant Yay! I am like a semi-professional tailor in that I am not super active in the field yet, tbh. As to organizing, letting my room degenerate into a mess brings the anxiety raccoons out to play, so I organize rawr. Also I super love throwing stuff out, esp other people's stuff. But not without their consent! Never ever. I just mean that I am good at being like "ah yes this broken old thing why do you need this do you really". Again, only with consent. No non-consensual organizing here, we don't do that shit.
OH GOD. Hand stitching isn't misery though. At least I don't think so? Super dull repetitive movements just make me happy and calm me down. It's why I can replay Dragon Quest 1 so much. Since that game is basically just "Rock the d-pad back and forth, mash a when there's a music change, occasionally look at it" at many points.
God don't even TALK to me about bobbins. I got an antique sewing machine off my friend for free, but it has NO extra bobbins, so of course I need to buy them. Which of COURSE they're stupid bobbins from hell that I need to special order off a reproductions site. Because of course they are.
I meant thread tension on the machine, when you sew so much you get dust under the plate and have to unscrew it to fix. Best day of my life when I was told that's what you can do when the tension gets wonk and you have no idea what is going on. Naww, asshole bobbins. Antique can be annoying to get parts for, but apparently they are often very reliable machines, at least!
Oh no I was just segueing from thread tension on machine to hand stitching. As I don't really have more to say on tension other than FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK.
I've been referring to them as the bobbins from hell. This is them. ((This is the machine, though that one's in a bit better shape than mine and also has all the weird extra parts.)) But yeah, older machines are a hell of a lot tougher than modern ones apparently, since back then they had to do ALL the household sewing. Couldn't just buy jeans, had to make jeans, etc. I'm planning to eventually use this one for corsetry but that's A Ways Off.
NO WAY. I wish I'd known that back when I used to sew more. (I have a love hate relationship with sewing.)
