so. moved within the last few months. depression has been eating me alive. i'm down to my last 20 bucks i've pretty much stopped eating entirely. i didn't eat at all yesterday, ate a little bit the day before, and the two days before that i just. didn't eat. the periods of which i don't even bother eating are getting longer i can't afford the supplies for my suicide, i'm tired, i'm sad. i need to move somewhere lighter and warmer but i can't do that. i can't go back to my abusive family, and there is no one who can take me. i can't work cuz apparently i'm so depressed i'm disabled i don't get hungry anymore, i don't feel like a person anymore i haven't done laundry in who knows how long, i barely leave my room i just. i feel like i'm dying and wish it would be over with
i like steven universe, especially lapis but. really it doesn't matter i appreciate the thought mostly i'm just. hoping i die soon. debating how long it takes to starve to death, or if i could just stop drinking and that would be faster
It would not be fast, and it would be extremely painful. Are there any organizations that you can get help from?
fast never really bothered me much i never have the energy to spend looking into things. i'm mostly mooching off people i know right now because i can't go back to my abusive parents and all my other family lives in nowheresville midwest which is cold and dark pretty much i'm doomed and i just wish death would come faster
I am in Australia so I can't provide any physical help, but maybe there are some other kintsugi peeps in your area? I know what your brain is doing and it sucks. I believe in you. Just focus on surviving. Liquid food if you can't manage anything solid.
i can't afford liquid food i can't afford any food really i have twenty bucks to my name and i can't even leave my room for more than five minutes at a time it's been two days and i haven't bothered eating and i just don't CARE anymore. i literally was tempted to toss my dog out my bedroom window just so he doesn't have to stay in this stupid hell with me
I'm sorry. I don't know how to help. Fwiw if you take a calculator shopping and buy generic brand stuff, you can at least get stuff for sandwiches
it's not your fault i'm past helping i don't have a job and i just mooch off of people if i'm lucky maybe someone will get tired of me existing and just. kill me
I want you to ask yourself why you made this thread, and really think about it. Listen to some nice music.
i made it because i dont have any other way to feel like i can reach out to people and i'm dying and i'm going to die here and no one will notice me being gone if i didn't say anything
You aren't going to die. You can make it through. I can't remember the url but I know someone on here runs a blog specifically for low income diets. There's a lot if talk about good, cheap food. Try sevencupsoftea too, and I strongly recommend taking some time a day trying out stopbreathethink.
What city do you live in/near and what are your transportation options? You need the address of the local food bank and a means of getting there and back, if only for your dog's sake. I can do the research for you if you tell me your general location.
the issue with a blog about low income diets is that i have zero income i'm lucky i'm not homeless, the only reason i'm not is cuz someone is letting me stay here see half the time it's not panic just. it is a Thing and it won't stop being a Thing pretty much transportation is public stuff. bus. train. i don't have the energy nor will to ever go to those places. i don't have any documentation that i have no income, nor that i actually LIVE in the state. even though i'm here. so it's pointless
Food banks don't require you to have documentation, you just walk in. You might need your personal id, but if you're over the age of 16 you probably have one. Even then, though, I don't think they'd even ask you for a personal id. If you're too starved to leave the house, which I would totally understand, I imagine we could pretty easily pool pizza money and have a pizza or something of that nature sent to you so that you can go out for food bank food later.
also made sure i bought the dog food recently so really the only one who has any issues is me i don't really matter that much anyways so eh
I added the thing about the pizza to my post a bit late so I don't know if you saw it, but if you're willing to work with us I'm pretty sure we can get you a food and the means to get more food. If you're not interested I'll back off.
it's not that i'm too starved it's just. i don't care much about eating anymore? the last few months i slowly dwindled from eating regular number of meals to like. one a day. then just. stopped caring about trying to eat at all. even when i had money to eat regularly i had started not caring enough to get food and eat enough
Well, since you won't tell me your city and state I can't locate resources for you, but this website/call center is nation wide and would be able to help you find food resources and work within your limitations: http://www.211.org/services/food You're also clearly in need of someone to talk to about your passive and active suicidal urges. The same website has a section for crisis hotline services: http://www.211.org/services/crisis-and-emergency There is also, of course, the National Suicide Hotline, which also has a text chat feature: http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/gethelp/lifelinechat.aspx (I am assuming you're in the United States. Please correct me if I'm wrong.)
