Ugh, so I have been having major issues eating for the past... Two months now? I don't even know anymore. Been eating primarily mashed potatoes, rice, and breakfast drinks for the last month because new drugs made me hella anxious which made most foods not-food. But I have basically been very conscious and spending effort on making sure that I eat some food. It has been pretty consistantly an unpleasant experience. And I am tired and frustrated of having to use up so much willpower and spoons to make sure that I eat something. I am finally to the point that I think I can start edging back into more complicated food, but I am really tired of rice and mashed potatoes right now and trying to even decide what is possibly food is effort. And I am tired. Did I mention that I was tired? Tired of fighting myself so I don't starve? So tired. Anyways, I think I am at the point where I am like... SOS plz. And I know it is difficult cuz like.... I still hate most foods and eating, and I was a picky eater even before this issue rose its ugly head, but maybe some one has some advice? Tips and tricks? The access code to a magically pill that fulfills dietary needs so I do not have to wrestle with the question "what should I eat?" ever again?
idk on advice that fits this, but what's the hardest part of eating? getting started, prepping the food, the actual eating bit? because if it's the getting started, could you set alarms or get someone to bug ya (either online or off) to eat? as for the other stuff, you've prolly already thought of this, but. gun for easy to prep food? smoothies w/ peanut butter or somethin? (i know u said u were doin breakfast drinks, but there's a lil more variation in smoothies u make urself i think? provided u have a blender handy.) sorry if this isn't helpful.
I'm not sure what a "breakfast" drink entails, but I like chocolate protein powder + a milk liquid (dairy, almond, etc). Get one of those blender bottle things with the wire sphere and its basically just a cup for clean up. (Make sure its tightly closed before you shake it, though... Otherwise there will be more clean up). Also a multivitamin if you can stand taking those. Premade microwave meals come in a lot of combos, maybe there will be one you like? I like those when I'm in those states when I can barely manage to do more food prep than "take slice of bread out of bag, eat slice". Also microwavable soup cups, or easy mac if you like that. Unless you're diabetic or celiac or something that can be severely impacted by diet, what you're eating right now is less important than it getting in your body. Other ideas? Plain almonds (get them in a lil can, open can, get almond), yogurt cups, bananas, premade pbj things? I hope some of this is helpful. Good luck. <3
@taxonomicAtrocity Sadly the hard part is all of the following: deciding on a food, making the food, eating the food. Don't want to make decisions because nothing tastes good and likely means I will be putting disappointment in my mouth. Don't want to make food because it is tiring and annoying and likely to end in disappointment. Don't want to eat food because it tastes like disappointment. I have a hamburger about once a day. I eat it because it requires no effort and no decision because it is only fast food thing I eat and is a quick grab on my way home from work. It still tastes like disappointment and I have to con myself into finishing it most days. It does not fill me up or satisfy me. Basically the whole experience is negative and I am having difficulty even cutting out the decision making/prepping process(I can't eat pizza anymore and my fav restuaraunt is only sometimes food). @Avery making things is effort(guess who hasn't had the spoons to wash their dishes for the past year?!), so my breakfast drinky thing is a store bought thingy to mix with milk. Lotsa vitamins and stuff. I try to take multivitamins when I eat solid food(drinks do not feel solid and thus do not qualify). As for food suggestions: I am rather picky and against insta foods in general, but I am contemplating stocking them up again(though they too make me sad). Almonds would probably be okay, though they won't be able to make me not hungry. I do have yogurts on hand for when they are food. Pbjs are punishment food and bananas were never food xD
I only suggested PBJs because I know some people like them, but they are punishment food for me too. XD
don't have much advice for you, but I wanted to express my sympathies. since October or so when my anxiety suddenly clunked me over the head I've had a hell of a time both eating and keeping food down, and it sucks. I've managed not to starve yet, and when I got on anxiety meds it got a little better, but it was slightly hairy (like, passing-out hairy) for a while there, and I am still extremely limited in what and how much I can eat. so yeah, I hope it gets a little better for you too.
Well, it just so happened that late last night I actually wanted a food. So I went to the store at 2:30am for the ingredients. I managed to find the energy to cook it up today(it's still cooking), so I am hopeful that I will enjoy eating sometime today at least. And this is not a unheard of brain thing for me. It is annoying that I have to reach breaking point before I can get proper emotional release to actual approach/solve a problem. Of course, it is also part of the pattern that this will be a temporary not-problem and that I will slowly loose the ability to manage/cope with this problem. Sigh. Anyways! Temporary relief! I should have food for a few days, hopefully it is delicious and will stay delicious.
whoo! :D for what it's worth, currently my amazing food solution for snacks/enough blood sugar to think about real food/etc is chocolate raisins. because fruit! and chocolatey! and taste good! previous solutions have also been: butter on crackers (this is also good for when you realise you haven't had any salt content in forever), cookies/biscuits/cakes/whatever gives you a blood sugar of [something] and makes you feel okay and is affordable (I'm lucky in this because my supermarket has a bakery, but you may be less lucky depending on district), bread and cheap pate (look, carbs and protein and salt!). (my suggestions are generally tailored to my individual dietary needs, so they may or may not work for you, but I figure it's worth at least mentioning)
Update: food appears to be normalizing again(yay!), so I think I may be on the rise to recovery. Almonds and insta meals have been helping, so I appreciate the suggestions, and stuff especially @Avery ^_^
Fuck. My decisioner/effort aspects of food broke. Me: After we eat, then we can play. Okay? Brain: hmmm. What if just lay in bed instead? Me: but like we are hungry and we need to eat. If we don't eat, we are gonna feel like shit again. Look, I got rid of all the other obligations and everything. So let's just eat some food, then just fun times. Really easy. Body: *lays in bed* Me: I... this isn't helping. We aren't even sleepy. Body: *stays in bed* Me: :c
Would it help keeping a food-like item by the bed, or in a little bag you can carry around everywhere? Do you have anything easily portable that's a constant-food, like a cereal bar or pop tarts or fruit?
Constant foods are hard, but remembering I have almonds sorta helps cuz I can snack on them. Bed was just sorta... an unexpected failure mode. I made a rule: cannot play until I eat. My brain some how translated into must eat to play > cannot eat > cannot play > no point or purpose to doing things > lays in bed. Which was counter productive, but I did acquire food later that day thanks to friend delivering me taco bell. Which allowed me to play. And then I snacked on almonds and grapes until later and managed to cook a food for myself. It was just utterly frustrating :c food is still being iffy but my appetite has returned, just not quite enough energy to deal with it. I want foods. I want delicious complicated foods. I cannot always make them. Lesser foods are sometimes acceptable, sometimes they are just another roadblock to my brain.
If almonds are OK, how about praline pecans? (I get them from Amazon) or shelled pistachios? (Byerly's -- I could order some extra for you and pass them along). Dark chocolate peanut M&Ms.
I am pretty picky with nuts and sweet things can make me sick if i have not eaten solid/nutritious foods recently. Got a friend in town who loves to cook and made me some chicken alfredo so I should be safe for a bit. Sorta worn out currently cuz so many events @-@ leaves me less energy for feeding myself.
